Life's Like That

Final log

2008-11-12T19:42:00.008+08:00

You never know what you have till you've lost It....I guess those guys in the past really know what they're talking about lol.

Well anyway, got a lotsa assignments to pass up next week. Haven't even finish some of it, yet somehow my mind feel at peace lol, no stress, no tension, no nothing, weird. Never feel this blissful in a while, been having fun this past few days.

Maybe I'm going nuts :0

or not^^

The skies seem so blue even when it rains.
The heat feels so nice even when it's hot outside.
Heck, even pouring boiling wax on my hand yesterday felt so cool.
I guess his is how It feels to be alive....
Enjoying the rough AND the good times.

Its not about being positive all the time,
sometimes you gotta know how it feels when everything going down hill,
no one to trust, no one's there with you when you're in the darkness.
When betrayed by the person you truly trust.
or how It feels to lose all hopes when you truly need it.
That IS life.

There are certain people I don't like, but still, I can never have the heart to truly hate anyone.
God did say " Love your enemies"
I guess that's one commandments which I can live with.

Life has been rough,
but in the end everything is always gonna be alright.

ahhh~~~

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12th November 2008...71st post.
Well thx for reading, whoever you are, this will be my last post in this blogspot.
Tho I'm not gonna delete It, just for reminiscences.
In case I've forgotten who I used to be.

Seasons come and go,
Friends come and go,
Love come and go,
Sadness come and go.
Happiness come and go.
Yesterdays friend can be today's enemy.
Yesterdays laughter can become tomorrow's tears.
Vice versa.

In short,
Nothing is meant to last,
Everything has Its ending.
Gotta face that one important fact of life.
Nothing is forever or as what it seems.
Remember that.

I'll just gonna go with the flow for now,
float wherever Fate wanna.
Tho I'll swim against the wave if I see something or someone worthwhile.

Gotta move on with life, no matter how boring or bleak it might be.

What you've read in this whole blog is a part of me,
My life as a typical college kid.
Part of me that you'll never see in person.
Behind that cheerful, smilling face that you always see.

Emo,
Nerd,
Otaku,
Corny,
Weird,
Serious,
Stupid,
photography nut,
Lazy,
Lame,
Loner,
Whiner....

But ultimately, I'll always be a shy, happy-go-lucky guy,
I can't get through my life even a day without laughter.
Met few people that has influenced my life.
Got a few scars to remember my mistakes.
Whatever happens, I know I've had a happy life.

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I'm not gonna complain anymore.
Take care & Godspeed.

~sempat~
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lol

(n_n)y

~End~

~frosty~

Hah!

2008-11-11T01:22:00.005+08:00

No time for fun and game anymore, few more days left, I mean a FEW!
Who need sleep eh? =.="

Sometimes it feels as if whenever I'm taking one step forward, I'm being pushed two steps back...now that's what I call moon-walking,lol.

Ah well, Ain't got the time to complaint but just gotta suck it up for now.

Time to dive into the fireworks, hell yeah!!

~frosty~

Batang Aik?!

2008-11-09T22:09:00.005+08:00

8th October, we went a trip to Batang Ai for our last photography assignment with our Lecturer, Mr Simon.
Basically the whole bus trip took around 5 hour to and fro T.T.

Our first stop after 2 hours of gluing our butt in the bus seat, need to strecth our arms and legs ya know? Right after we grab some snacks for the next butt gluing session, we head to Batang Ai power plant, gotta admit, that place is boring man =.=" so I'm gonna skip that.
Hilton Batang Ai entrance, after climbing some stairs from the jetty, everyone was totally exhausted.Although It was a little hot and humid when we arrive, overall the place is nice, a paradise in the middle of nowhere:) I like
After Eric, Dom and I were assigned our room, we just crashed onto our bed lol, the cold air-conditioned room and fluffy bed were just too much of a temptation for us xD But alas, we have to go coz we have a jungle trekking session right after that o.O"
Simon flirting with a tourist.:p Kiddin' Lol, I seriously respect that old guy, really look up to him, I'm sure we're all gonna miss him when he's not teaching us anymore. Well I know I will anyway.
100 meter hanging bridge>.<" damn It was scary o.O Some sunset shots

Testing Edmund's wide angle filter on my lens xD. Those two are Abby & Ren, sitting on the floating pier, watching the sun go down:)Random moment.Sorry, blur >.<" Right after that we return to our room, waiting for dinner. Eric and Dom.Even cold water can make you drunk :P
Carolyne & Angel. lol
We tried to stay awake as long as possible, gotta enjoy every minutes we're here ya know, aha. The guys having a game of snooker...or billiard...or pool, or whatever you call 'em, which I really suck at.>.<

Well, Eric and I didn't play, instead we hung out at the bar and chat with the friendly bartender, Fedrow:) we even get some free shots of liqueur lol. after entertaining us with some ghost story about the place, he insist that we should star gazing at the pier while floating some candle on the lake, so that what we did:D The guys are doing some ritual lol. jk. Lighting the candles before we let them float away...I managed to doze of a few times, well not before I manage to spot a few shooting stars, I hope I'll get my wish haha.
The next day, Eric and I woke up a bit late,around 8.30 a.m, that last night 'tuak' and liqueur really does Its job.Having a 'little' breakfast, which seemed like a buffet lol. After eating as much as our stomach let us, we take some photo for memento. Who knows when we're gonna visit this place again.:(

Took this one while on the way to our room.haha.

Group shot. After we arrived safely to Kuching.
Really needed the trip. Overall It was a great experience, haven't had any fun in a while;)
If only we could've stayed longer>.<"

~frosty~

Love at first sight.....

2008-11-06T21:29:00.004+08:00

Aw man, this baby is one heluva camera.Love them to bits.

The E-30 from Olympus, just announced a few days ago.

Yea yea, I know, It's not the camera that makes a good photograph, It's the person holding It. But man oh man, seeing this beauty makes me wanna change that statement.

Gotta get me one, mwahaha.Cost roughly around RM4600(!),Need to start saving some cash, I'll skip lunch if I have to.xD

It's weather-sealed(almost water proof, but definitely rain-proof)and has an improved body strength. A blessing for me since I carry my SLR almost everywhere,everyday, rain OR shine,

Swiveling LCD, no more lying on the ground to get the shot I wanted, woot.

As usual, the control layout is perfect, all the quick access buttons are located EXACTLY where they're suppose to be. Ain't that nice?

In camera photo editing, no more time wasted in front of PC, edit while on the go. Now that's pure ecstasy right there. Gotta love the classic Pin-hole and pop art effects xD

So called 'purist'(people who insist that photo shouldn't be altered in any way) can form a line behind me and kiss my ass, one by one. Unless you're doing photo journalism, photo editing is perfectly fine.

Most people would say that the sensor of the four-thirds camera is very noisy, but that is just exaggeration. I've never been disappointed by the image quality of my Oly slr.

Give me one of this and I can die as a happy man....:p Kiddin'....but seriously, lol.

~euphoric frosty~

Holy shit! It's Holiday!!!

2008-11-06T15:13:00.003+08:00

Holiday is coming soon, finally, it's like it has been ages.

Hope I can go to Selangor this holiday, my uncle is looking for a part time photographer. He's a videographer by the way. I mean It's a good way for me to learn the ropes.

*crosses finger*

Nothing fun to do here, I mean I'm just waiting for the Anime convention that's gona happen (or not) around January next year. (Damn, that reminds of the the tag that I need to do o.O")Everyone will be busy I guess. Everyone's gotta move on with their own life eh:)

It's either that or I'm gonna be stuck here, doing part time jobs =.="...... I ain't gonna rot to death here man!

I don't want to live in my imagination anymore, enough of books & dreaming. I wanna see & feel everything out there. sigh~

~frosty~

A little poem about assignments

2008-11-06T05:37:00.005+08:00

Assignment, assignment, assignment, assignment.
especially from our lecturer Alex and Mr.Simon
Every time I pass up they ask for refinement.
So doing my work again, I'm stuck in a confinement.

Being a hard worker I always try,
every time doing doing it non-stop makes me wanna cry T.T
Even got some work delayed from July.
My time management sucks, I can't deny.
I always wanna do It but I blame my sleepy eye =.=zzzzZZZ
Why I'm like that I also don't know why. ?.?"

Today we got mass com presentation,
report haven't done yet now my head got all tension.
It feels like one of those old situation.
Where I just wanna fly away, find my sweet sweet salvation.

If I don't do my work I'm sure gonna die.
If repeat sem again, by my lecturer I'm gonna get 'fry'.
All I can say is 'aye-ya-yai'
Please dun kill me I promise to be a good guy. :p

Alright, sure, no problem, Okay
I know I got you all bored so I will go away xD
Besides, I dunno what else to say.
Ow man, this whole poem sounds a bit too gay. D:

~frosty~

Sunset

2008-11-05T18:51:00.005+08:00

The burning sun is going to set soon.
Slowly replaced by the star and the moon.
All the flame of yesterday is slowly burning away.
No matter how much I want it to stay.

I expected to walk this long walk home alone,
beaten road scattered with pebbles and stone.
But along the way I found a few walking the same road.
giving a hand lifting this load.
Gone are the joy of yesterdays.
fun and laughter and all of those craze.
drifting away like clouds in the skies.
One by one we say our goodbyes.

Yet, in the end the sun must come down.
But please whatever happens never ever frown,
hold your head up high,
because tomorrow the sun will return to the sky xD

p/s: I know it's a corny poem, but that's is the only way to express what I'm feeling right now. :p

~frosty~

Hungry

2008-11-04T19:14:00.006+08:00

Just some random post while I'm online xD

While playing truth or dare today,(oh yeah, you can even use a 'selipar' as the pointerxD) one question hit me, asked by 'you-know-who-you-are'. 'Do you like anyone?' I was like...
Well, in general, I like everyone(well except Yuki, yeah, I really hated that b**ch.Sorry, I forgive but NEVER forget). But I'm sure that wasn't the answer she wanted lol.

I like the idea of a relationship,this whole 'LOVE' thingy. I mean it's something everyone is looking for right? But I never really give much thought of the idea of BEING in a relationship. Weird.....

I mean it's a fun subject to talk about, since it's happening all around us. Some people are being chased by a stalker, some people are being 'chased' by someone from the same sex(*cough cough*) some people are heartbroken, some people are getting married and stuff. I like to analyze why or how people 'love' but never imagine myself in the situation

I never really have time for anything nowadays, I can't even take a good care of myself for christ's sake, let alone others o.O" Or about the future. Heck, I'm even thinking about living a single life and adopt kids lol, tho I don't know how long people can live alone. Well wish me luck:p

All this talking about love makes me 'hungry', oh well, I guess I'll 'diet' for now, maybe think about it again AFTER college =.=" See if I'll change my mind after that.

~frosty~

Vulnerable to Invincible.

2008-11-04T03:11:00.006+08:00

This is a story about a guy and a girl.
Guy love a girl, girl blur, going to somewhere far soon, Guy sad = the end?

Love is a tricky business, even trickier to define, but based on my experiences, I guess I kinda have a bit of grasp on what it's all about, tho I never really understand it yet.

Early relationships resulted in more break-ups compared to later ones which enjoyed better emotional stability. Like the story of the little girl and the three bears, where she tries their bed, the first and the second is either too soft or too hard, but the last one is just perfect.

Well, let's use a metaphor for a love partner, buying an SLR(lol, sorry, that's the first thing that came through my mind xD)Don't just buy the one you THINK is good. Before buying, you gotta read the review,get to know it, know all of its weaknesses and strengths, compromise on the weaknesses you can live with and the strengths that you can't live without,no one's perfect! then you make your purchase.

After that everything will work like magic coz you've already known each other's strengths and weaknesses, complementing each others abilities to make each other a better person.

Or you can just think of it like a jigsaw puzzle. It's the different pieces that fits each other, not the exact same shaped pieces. Get what I'm trying to say here? It's not about finding the perfect person,but it's about finding someone that is just right for ourselves. Of course, having too many differences ain't gonna work too.

That's the easy part, now let's go to the maintaining part.>:D
And after a while I also learned that all we need is selflessness, we just gotta learn to be emotionally open, you gotta lower your defenses, that's the only way to accept intimacy.

Of course, lowering your emotional defenses does have its consequences,

During that time you'll also be emotionally vulnerable and weak, even the smallest cut, cuts REAAAAAAL DEEP, doesnt matter how strong you think you are.....believe me on this one....that's the price you gotta pay if you wanna accept anyone into your life.

You'll trust them with full honesty, there's no place for doubts and suspicions. When you found they lied, BAM! It's like hitting a brick wall, everything will come crashing down.

This brings us to 'forgiveness'.

No doubt, in a relationship, fights gonna happen, mostly because of misunderstandings. And in this fight, the winner is NOT who gets to say the last word, but it's the first person who say 'sorry', the first person who ask for forgiveness.

And also, as far as I can see, the best couples are not the one who just met each other in one day and go from there. Usually they are the best of friends, the person who's around you all this while, the one that you're most comfortable with.

They are the people who gone through the storms with you and watching the rainbows together. Offer you a hand when you're down and elevate you even higher when you've already up. They will still treat each other as best friends, doing meaningful things together.

Every sadness will be halved and happiness is doubled :)

You'll feel invincible and as if nothing else matters as long as you got each other's back. Love is powerful and lasting if you understand it better.

I guess we do learn about love each time we experience it, Good or bad. That's why I never regretted everything that I've went through.

Well, that's how I feel anyway,or how I used to feel.

Someday.....again....:)

~frosty~

Soul'd Out

2008-11-02T16:22:00.004+08:00

All soul's day today, like every other year, we went to my father's grave to say hi & pay some respect. He rests in my village cemetery, so we spent a night at my gramps before going to the semetary the next day, which is not far from there. I was bored so I took some photos to kill some time.

My Granma's Orchid

and some other flowers.....or plant....

My cousin's dog, aptly named 'Si putih' lol

Oh dad, why do you have to go....?There's so much you haven't teach me yet....and you were'nt there when mom cried again....sigh~Oh why you have to drink that night....? I was nine when he passed away...

Love your parents....that's all I gotta say. Never know when it's gonna be the last time you're gonna see them.

~frosty~

Religion, God, War, Death = sigh~!

2008-10-31T00:25:00.011+08:00

Being alone make a boy like me think about a lot of stuff, this is just one of them.

Spiritual and Religious. Which one are you?

I don't believe in the existence of UFO,Leprechaun or Loch Ness monsters, coz' there isn't really any plausible proof of their existence, I'm the kinda person who wouldn't believe anything so easily, I'd do research over and over again till I'm able to accept the existence of the impossibles.

But somehow I believe in the existence of God, don't ask me why. I just do. Having him around is like having your own private diary, tell 'Him' everything that bothers and I'd feel better already.

Scientist created a theory that the universe was started by the Big Bang. But it makes me wonder, was there anything before that? Or was It just 'nothing'? If there's nothing then the big bang couldn've had happened. 'Nothingness' can't give birth to 'something' Everything has It's origin.

I'd go to church now and then, I'd say my prayer when I'm asked to.
But I'm not what we Christians would call religious I guess.
I sometimes almost falls asleep during church, or most of the time my mind just drift off somewhere during the whole prayer session. o.O"
Heck, It's even been a while since I went to confession >.<" And It's also been a awhile since I even touch a Bible. Being religious is practicing whatever your religion wants you to do, to me It's just another word for 'Tradition'. Day by day people follow them to please God so they can go to Heaven, or at least to avoid the dreaded fires of Hell when they kicked the bucket. Kinda reminds of the story about our Ex-lecturer 'Yuki', she fails students like crazy, the only way to ensure that you'll get a pass for her subject is to please her by treating her to a lunch or something like that. (How true is this I have no Idea, so please correct me If I'm wrong.)

That kinda hit me, are people going to Church because they afraid that God will throw them to Hell, like the students are afraid that Yuki will fail them? Or are they sincerely go to the place of worship because they are truly grateful to God?...or something else? I'll never know.

In world history, the greatest cause of Death alone was and still because of religion or belief.
People would fight for their 'God'. Holy death, Holy war, Holy this, Holy that, Holy whatever crap that the head of their religion sect brainwashed their mind with.(The Crusade remember?)

I mean, what kind of God would ask for the death of others?!#!%$!^??~!*&(%^$!!
Is God THAT weak that he needs us puny, tiny human to fight for him? I mean wtf man?.
People are suffering already all around the world, children need to be fed, houses need to be built, the dying need to be cured. But people rather waste their money on finding some more creative way to kill each other.

Starving to the point of 'skeletonized'

Osama bin Laden attacked America in the name of God, George Bush retaliate with an excuse that It's to fight the 'Infidels'. Nothing is black and white anymore, Its hard to distinguish between who's 'Good' and who's 'Bad'

Each heat seeking 'AIM-9 Sidewinder' missile on an America Fighter Jet cost around 84k US Dollar, yeah, I did my research. That's a lot of money wasted just to kill one or two person in the opposing fighter jets. Could've been put to better use dammit.

The only reason when we get mad at each other is because of misunderstandings, nothing less, nothing more.Not beacuse we disagree. This brings us back to Religion.I'm gonna use these two religion as an example just for the sake of argument. Christianity and Islam has a lot in common, in term of the basic teachings, the only thing that set them apart are traditions. Yet people continue to fight because of the little differences.

To me ALL religion pray to the same God, but because of how each religion see 'Him', we're bound to have our differences in opinion, how we should praise him etc.

Religion sometimes blinds people from seeing the 'Real' God, so to speak. Religion is what we human created. It's some sort of like a guideline, but when people taking it too far, that's when 'God' is pushed out of 'Religion' and human is in charge of whatever religion they are in.....that's twisted.

Ignorant follower would do whatever their 'Religious' leader tells them to do, including suicide bombing.(Japanese airplane Kamikaze attack anyone?) If the priest at my church tell me to do that, I'll gladly say "after you!" even If he happen to be the Arch-Bishop. I'm still not sold to the idea that killing is what God would love to see.

For Christ's sake, killing another is NEVER-EVER a good thing! I'm saying this not from religion point of view, but from a moral standpoint.

But then again, people believe what they wanna believe, and see what they wanna see, hear what they wanna hear. Sometimes It's useless to argue with people who hold a firm grip to their so called 'belief'.

Sometimes I even wish that don't belong to any religion. I just wanna believe in 'Him' without being tied down to anyone. Am I a sinner for wanting that? Or should I just shut up and do whatever 'they' think what's good for me...?

I think God wants each and everyone of us to live in peace with each other, NOT go hating or killing one another for 'His' sake. Sure, I'm not God(duh lol) or I've ever met 'Him' but I figured that It's something that 'He' would wants us to do. I might eat my words when I meet 'Him' but I'm ready for that. D':

So in the end, people gotta remember that being religious and spiritual are two different things entirely. Being religious is following the tradition or ritual of your religion while spiritual is just believing in the existence of 'God' whole-heartedly, loving 'Him' out of your own free will, not because you're afraid of him, afraid of being condemned to Hell like your parents say,but because you sincerely love 'Him'

Well, I guess this is the fate we're stuck with, It's not like we can just go out and decide that we wanna change It.

I don't want to live like someone else, I'm Happy in my own skin, as who I am.

lastly, please do forgive me if I offended anyone, It was purely unintended. Peace.

~frosty~

Diwali Diwala xD

2008-10-29T02:19:00.004+08:00

Today, or technically yesterday night was the Festival of light, or Diwali. This year it falls on the 28th of October. Dex, who's half Hindu, Half Malay and Half Iban and half human half wolf.....wait nvm xD.

Anyyywaaaay. He invited us to his house to celebrate Diwali with his family, so what the heck, free food bah O.o" :p

Boys in the front, girls in the back, scavenging for food.lol Kiddin'

Jim, who hasn't eaten for a whole day...well according to him, ahah.

Lookie here, sumone fell asleep lolLol, Jacob's joining in the 'sleeping session'

Group photos

Guess what are they watching? lol Jim,Ren & Vann tengah control :p

Around 11.30, we head back home since Yen and I got curfew o.O"
ah well.
While driving back home after dropping Jim and Yen, I try to find the most quietest street I can find on the way home, the only one I can find was the road near SMK Matang.

Last time the road was pitch-black tho, before they errect thos street lamps,=.="
What did I wanna do? Oh nothing, just wanna take some random photo and hoping to find some nice 'spirit' or at least UFO's, guess I didn't find anything D:

It was kinda foggy tho, but you can't see It in this photo.
Oh yeah, check out what they wrote on the billboard,
If u can't, It's "have a fag", I think they meant fog, yeah, that's It, fog.lol

After a while I reached home, while opening the front gate I saw this:

The night queens,three of 'em, blooms again :D It smells really really nice.

Got a few shots before I went in, and here I am, blogging lol. well better get some sleep now, G'nite *yawn*

~frosty~

In the eye of the storm, paradise found

2008-10-28T06:37:00.005+08:00

Finally a day off from everything. o.O"

Been going out the whole week last week, even my biological clock has been messed up, I slept & wakes up whenever.

Yeah, this is how I felt, totally flushed.

Gonna turn off my phone for now and open up my mind.
No assignment for today thank you, a moment of peace in the chaos...

Just gotta stay frosty, man, life's too short to be feelin' down all the time. Sometimes just wanna stretch out, lie down on an open grassland & dreaming under the clouds, questioning life greatest mysteries while hearing the birds sing.....ahhhh... now that's heaven.

~frosty~

Alone in a crowd, (emo alert!)

2008-10-26T22:00:00.010+08:00

Being an introverted individual in a world full of extraverted person is lonely.

The definition of extraverted is a person whose preference is to focus on the world outside the self. Extraverts enjoy social interactions and tend to be enthusiastic, verbal, assertive, and animated. They enjoy large social gatherings, such as parties and any kind of group activity. Extraverts are likely to enjoy time spent with people and find themselves energized by social interaction.

Their main traits are Gregarious, Assertive, Talkative, Social/outgoing, Likes groups, parties, etc., Energized by interaction, Expressive & enthusiastic, volunteers personal information, Distractable, Has many friends and Easy to approach

Now compare that to an Introverted person. Introversion is a preference to focus on the world inside the self. Introverts tend to be quiet, peaceful and deliberate and are not attracted to social interactions. They prefer activities they can do alone or with one other close friend, activities such as reading, writing, thinking, and inventing. Introverts find social gatherings draining.

They are Energized by time alone, Private, Keeps to self, Quiet, Deliberate, Internally aware, Fewer friends, Prefer smaller groups, Independent, Not socially inclined, Enjoys solitude and Thinks before speaking. In short, they are freakin' selfish. yea...

No prices for guessing I belong to which one of those two...

Seeing people enjoying themselves going out together with lotsa friends, partying, laughing, doing fun,crazy stuff together under the sunshine....It hurts me so much....why?....coz I'm deeply jealous of them,

I in the other hand prefer to keep to myself, reading, lying under the stars, prefer the silent whisper of the night, & love rains....

Yes, It is a lonely life.

Sometimes I do enjoy going out with friends, but unlike them, I can't seem to keep it up wiv them, I feel tired easily when I'm in a crowd. Do I wanna be that way? No, I don't.

I once showed my photography lecturer Simon some of my early photos that I took, the first thing he noticed that even I failed to know about my own photos is that they are 'lonely', there are not even ONE person in my photos! It took me awhile to even realize that.

As much as I want to force myself to become an Extravert person, I can't...I guess I can't fight nature, I can't lie to myself, believing I'm someone that I'm not. I tried a lot of time, contradicting my own values to blend in with the crowds, It's hard but sometimes I'm able to force myself. Do I want to be that way? No. Do I regret for being who I am right now?The answer is surprisingly, No.

This is who I am and I must accept that.

I guess people can't really change who they really are.Everyday people are doing their best to be accepted in this community. Community that we ourselves has constructed since the day of our ancestors when they first created the first communion village way back then.

The phrases like "Be yourself!" or "I don't give a shit what people think of me, this is MY life, I do whatever I like" holds little meaning anymore.

The fact is our life is governed by some invisible standardized social or moral rules that we must follow, go againts It and you'd be ridiculed by the community or worst, killed.

In a world where socializing is greatly valued, It has no place for people who love to be alone. It's a sickness. Yet I'm stuck wiv It....

I'm slow to accept people into my life, even slower to let them out. Sometimes I seem close to certain people but the next day I might seem like I'm a stranger.I'm the kind of person that would let myself drown than let people risking their life to save mine. So please forgive me for being secretive about my problems.

Rather ask for forgiveness than be forgiven(confused?doesn't seem make any sense but it does, to me...), I'm the kind of guy who would sit alone by myself when I don't have anything to say, even if my friends are close by but I would gladly allow some complete stranger to sit next to me and tell me the stories of their life. Listening is my forte while talking is my weakness...

To find another introvert.... that would be a blessing, someone who'd understand me. To prove to me that I'm not the only one. But I guess I'm just looking for a needle in a haystack. But I can hope....right?:)

In the end, I'm content for who I am. But I do feel bad for people around me, Its hard being friend to an introvert like me,I know. I don't blame them. I just hope that one day, they you guys would understand why I am 'who I am' :)

peace

~frosty~

Go Eric, It's yo' B'day xD

2008-10-26T05:55:00.006+08:00

24th October 1987, the day our brother from another mother, Eric was born. And on 24th October 2008, he is officially a full-fledged 21 years old adult, ahah. The event manager was Dexter.The place, the resident of Arsita & Paramita.

"Press this key Yen" says Vann

The wanted list.

Ice cream B'day cake, designed by Dex.

Even Ju-on were invited xD

The guest of honor "Haha, sik nyala bunga api" says Eric, pointing to Remy.

Happy birthday to you~!Vann playing the piano in the background, oh yea, she's good at it:D

He's so good, he can even play a chocolate guitar!

Girls gone wild:p

Lmao, xDDDD

Group photos
Wooo~! It ended around 1.30am. Damn tired, gotta wake up early the next day to cover TYT's birthday=.=" heck I don't even know him, ah well.

~frosty~

Give me....

2008-10-22T22:18:00.004+08:00

Give me a book, I'll read It,
Give me a television, I'll watch It,
Give me music, I'll listen to It,
Give a piece of paper, I'll paint It......
In short,I'm bored,
So give me anything to do,
But please, no assignments>.<"

22nd October, time flies.
Were already at the last leg of the 'race' now.
Everyone is working hard to meet their deadline.
Hmm...'Deadline'........
the word definitely holds a whole different meaning right now.
Struggling with every ounce of our strength.
Crawling inch by bloody inch to the finish line.

Looking back,
This Semester has been a one hell of a roller coaster ride,
Fast, Furious, nerve wreaking, has Its ups & downs...
yet fun at the same time.
Sometimes we wish the chaos to end,
Sometimes we wish that It'll never...
But alas,
Like every ride, It must have It's stopping station.

Yeah, time sure flies....
a few more weeks,
a few more assignments,
Soon everyone will be going their own way.
Fly out of our 'cocoon'
But....
The thought of not seeing everyone anymore...
It makes your chest feels heavy...
Weird....
this coming from someone who's a loner all this while.
I don't like attachment....
I always have problem with saying 'goodbye'
.........
Why can't everyone be together forever...?

Oh well, life's like that.

~frosty~

My Life's like that

2008-10-19T19:40:00.005+08:00

Just feels like writing something out, just ignore this one eh? Peace.

Rubbing my eyes to the morning sun.
Awaken by life all around me.
It's 7 a.m, early as usual.But sometimes I wonder,
Why? For someone who yet found any purpose in life.
Waking up early, looking forward to something that's not even there.

I wonder what I'm living for.
I'm enjoying my solitude
But why I'm feeling something's missing.
Looking for someone,
Shouting my lungs out with my mouth shut, to anyone.
Anyone's who's willing to tear this wall down.
Wall that I've build around me.

Running in circles, hoping to find the finish line.
Along this beaten path that I chose to take,
When will I find my conclusion?
If there's even any?

Weaken, beaten,
I'm feeling tired again.
But I've promised to myself to keep on smiling.
I've learned to smile when sorrow looms over me.
I've learned to laugh when my heart is stab with the sharpest of glass.
Plastic smile permanently etched onto my face.
Yet, eyes can't lie. It's the window to the soul.
Covering my eyes with my beanie cap,
Hoping someone wouldn't see through me.

Where are you?
Whoever you are.
I've been waiting for something.
Something that's not there.

Look at me, this is who I am.
Leaving my heart vulnerable again,
Stab It or Love It.
Hurt me or Love me.
Don't even care about how I feel even for a moment.
You can't hurt something that can't be hurt anymore.
I've learned to become numb to the pain.

Paint me with your colors,
So I can see myself again,
Take me out of this invisible life
Invisible life that I've grown used to.

Yet,

The sky is turning dark again

Another invisible day went past me by

Glowing sun, where are you,
Give me something to believe in.

Before I have to say good-bye...

~frosty~

I came, I saw, I take photo! :p

2008-10-18T21:52:00.006+08:00

This morning, my family went out for an outing to Serikin with our uncle who's visiting us from K.L. Actually I can either stay home and do my work or tag along, It was a no brainer here xD. First stop, Red Dragon Cafe, breakfast!

It's on the way to Bau from Batu Kawa. actually this is the first time I step foot here.

My family, uncle and aunty, having breakfast

Serikin, if you guys wanna go, better go sometime during the middle of the months, trust me, they'll be fewer people and save you some trouble of hustling with the crowds in the midday heat >.<"

It's located somewhere in the borderline between Sarawak & Indonesia, so It's not surprising this place is full of Indonesian.

Helmets

Watches

and perfumes,Man, this place got It all.

Even rows after rows of fabrics, you name It, they got It.

"Manggo masak di pokok manis-manis" nuff said

After done looking around and bought some trinkets along the way, we rendezvous with my other relatives at my granpa's fish pond. It's located near my kampung btw, which is Opar, Bau area. Aint't that far from our house.

Oh look, they're draining the fish pond. Well, my gramps do this once in every 2-3 years. I call It the fish 'harvesting' season. ahah

It's big, trust me

My uncle's friends & their families were also there.

My cousin, Brandon.

& Berry, yeap, his name is 'Berry' xD

Good ol' granpa, still healthy and strong as always, well he was a soldier in the army. :D

Taking out the fish net from the pond, the water is already too low for them to have any use.

Posing with fishes

Barrels after barrels full of fishes, sure beats the old worm and fishing pole anytime :D

Brian, hauling in the fishes and my bro, in white.

My granpa, poking some fruits next to the fish pond lol.

It ends roughly around noon, the fish pond were almost all dried up under the scorching midday sun. After cleaning up, head to my gramp's house, which is farther in the village.

Man,looking at the amount of fishes they caught, looks like I'll be on a seafood diet this whole week o.O"

Well, thanks for reading ya'll. Chow

~frosty~

Butterflies in your hand.....

2008-10-16T19:49:00.003+08:00

Love is like a rare butterfly, flying around peacefully. Beautiful & with It, holds the promise of happiness.

You just gotta work a lil' harder and chase It around.Sometimes If you're lucky, It'll subtly approach you, then all you have to do is offer It your hand.

Grasp It too tight, you're bound to crush It
Hold It too loose....well, you lose.

Try and try to keep it as long as we may,
Sooner or later It will fly away.....

Okay, first of all, sorry for the bad poem, if It even count as a poem xD

But that's not the point here, the point is this:

What if you got a chance to fall in love, but you know that It won't last, would you give It a shot? No? yeah, thought so. Why would we involve ourselves in something that we know ain't gonna last long? Hold onto a frail happiness, just for a moment.....and the thing is, this kinda thing happens quite frequently in our everyday life, all around us.

This thought alone scares me. Truth to be told, there's a lot of member from the opposite sex that I'm interested in, what can I say? I'm a guy. 'Who?' you might ask? Well I can tell you but whats the point?

The worst thing about It is It always started as two person, just some ordinary friends, things will evolve beyond that, slowly metamorphosis into something serious and when things doesn't work out, your partner will be the worst enemy you ever loved. A fiery phoenix, burns itself to dust. Such a sad ending.

If I know the next 'love' will promise happiness, I'll gladly give It a shot again but the statistic ain't looking that good. Love is a gamble,if you win, you win big,as I like to say, but If you lose , It's not a big thing but you will definitely feel It.

So tell me, would you even hold that butterfly if you have the chance? Definitely not an easy answer, well for me at least.

~frosty~

Huh? lol

2008-10-15T18:49:00.003+08:00

Been tagged by Doreen,

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post these instructions with your picture.
5. Tag 10 people to do this.

So here goes,

The :/ look lol

no comment xO

Let see, who I wanna tag....You! that's rite, you, whoever reading this rite now. post! xD

~frosty~

Who I am Hates who I've been....

2008-10-13T19:18:00.006+08:00

Relient K, one of my fave indie band. This song in particular really means something to me, It's about someone who regrets what he did in the past...

Yeah, we all know, It's no use dwelling in the past for the past is history as they say. But sometimes it's not that simple....

Who we are right now were shaped by what we experienced in the past,good or bad, there's no denying that.

But don't we hate It when someone use our past mistakes against us? or somehow It catches up to your current life and somehow affects you in an adverse way, you wanna move on but sometimes It just won't let you. (no, Im not talking about any past relationships, if that's what ur thinkin=.="mind you)

This song is something I can relate myself to, of course, I'm okay right now tho :) Just wanna share It with u guys. Man, I wish I can rewind time like the chick in the video, that would be cool no? xD

"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"
By Relient K

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

~frosty~

Photography - my panacea

2008-10-12T12:17:00.007+08:00

I realize, photography is not just a hobby to me anymore, It's how I escape from my problems. Yea, I'm not making this up.

Yesterday, we had a photography assignment at the Islamic Museum, (for those who don't know, It's next to RTM near Hopoh, Lol, I didn't even knew It even existed before o.O")

The whole day we were required to photograph Islamic artifacts that were on display

And of course, one of the requirement is that we must avoid reflections when shooting through glass, I was able to get this shot(above) 90% reflection free, which was no mean feat considering I'm not allowed to use my trusty polarizer to filter out any reflection, It was considered cheating since I'm the ONLY one who actually own that bloody thing =.=" ah well.
The dim lightings weren't making life easier either. And no flash are allowed, well since this IS a museum, no surprise there. If not this shooting session could've been a breeze by bouncing my flash around.

Around noon we get something to eat, carrying tripod around is exhausting ya' know:p
'Raawwrr!' says Jimmy.Don't ask.

Around 1.30 pm, we continued shooting.
Arab's armor, can u imagine wearing this chainmail in the desert heat? The sleeve alone weighs around 400grams o.O" now imagine equiping the WHOLE armor.
Almost no reflection xD
Potteries, gotta love the old Islamic art.

Ater that everything went blurry, my battery was dead T.T". (Note to self: should'nt have relied on Live View too much) Luckily someone borrowed me their batteries,(thx Wingle, haha). Just enough juice for some final compulsory photos.
lol. Class of photography 3, well at least what's left of 'em.

The whole session ended at 4.30 SHARP(!) We were practically being chased out of the museum by the curator lol. They seemed.....eager to go home. sigh~government workers.

Oh yeah, the whole time there were NO air conditiong at all. all they got were some door frame fans o.O". Talking about 'museum' lol, a very fitting name indeed. So it's like we're in a sauna the whole time.

During the whole time I realized I forgot about ALL(yea, I like to emphasize on that word) of my problem. I guess getting my mind caught up in photography has given me a temporary 'Haven', so to speak. It's like living 'here and now', No past, no future.

Heck, I felt so much better just by holding a camera. (It's an unhealthy obsession to some,I know hey, whatever works for me eh?)

Other than that, the only thing I need to get through my probs are coffee, a good dosage of laughter and some time alone to indulge in some reading, life couldn't be any happier :)

~frosty~

Moving on

2008-10-11T05:31:00.000+08:00

After a while, It seems as if my problems has gone, tho I know its far from that. Sometimes just forget about something seems to work, I guess that what people meant by 'Ignorance is bliss'.... It's best to don't know or at least forget about your probs for the time being....

For now I got much more important things to worry about, assignments. :/ If only everything can be solved by just working hard, but alas, not everything is that simple.

Well, for now, I guess I just gotta ignore my other probs and concentrate on things I CAN change right now.

I know somethings can be change and some can't....If we accept things as It is, then nothings gonna change, sometimes I'm going against my own philosophy....sigh, I dislike emotions, It always affects the way I think and make me dumb sometimes...=.=ah well.

A fervent thanks to all the peeps who supported me through this, you all are a good friends:)

~frosty~

F**k this

2008-10-09T11:27:00.000+08:00

So this is how It feels, when feelings & emotion overpower you, all reasoning and logic seems to fall apart, one by one.

Now I'm really feeling emo, hmm....

Do you ever feel regret? well, I used not to, Heck! I resent that feeling. But what if don't have any regrets for anything that that you've done in the past, you just wanna face what's in front of you but all your past mistakes catch up & take a grasp of your life, regrets is not an option anymore.

It's fine when you're the only one who's being drag down by YOUR own mistakes but what if people around you is affected as well....? People who actually care for you, your family....? Gah.....

Sometimes I just wanna get out and escape somewhere far, have an amnesia so I can just reset everything, but then again running away ain't gonna help no? It's one of those time when I wish I can go back in time & change who I was...

Gawd, I'm not enjoying this, not one bit.

:/ ah well, life goes on, everything happens for a reason......is what I want to believe. Hopefully my beliefs will get me through this mess I've gotten myself into....

I'm tired, annoyed, fed up & melancholic, didn't sleep for almost two days.....everything is 'fine & dandy'..........in Bizzaro world!

Better get some rest, & prepare for the worst...

~frosty~

Phew

2008-10-06T21:52:00.001+08:00

Finally, this year Raya has come to an end. Got some photos & videos but gonna upload them some other time tho.

It's also time for the fun to stop & the assignments moving......NOT! lol

Seriously, don't kow what's goin on but I'm getting lazier day by day.....wait, that's normal xD

Maaannn, I seriously gotta cut this lazying around out =.=" That is soo not me. Can't my lecturers just accept me for who I am?! a lazy bum?...ahah.

Meh, Guess I just gotta pump my mp3 to full blast & get back to work, whether I like It or not.

=.="~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=.="

~lazy frosty~

Dug up some more pics

2008-09-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

Got some eye candy for ya'll.

This dog was surprisingly co-operative.

Studio product shot

Taken while walking thru the city streets, got some flare in there if u noticed>.<"

If look hard, u can see people inside....eheh;)

Suddenly feeling hungry......
...and thirsty =.="

Love this one, the sky was naturally over-saturated without post-processing.

Taken while driving. pretty good(& reckless) If I do say so myself:p

Sorry for the bad editing, gotta photoshop out some power lines out of this photo.

Love this one, un-edited straight from the camera(well except for resizing of course)

Kinda noisy, no surprise here since it was shot at ISO1600

Well that was some or my fave shots, hope u like It ^^" Some criticism would be nice. Thx :D

Dedication to my beloved.

2008-09-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

From the first Time I met you, I knew you're the one.
Some people say I'm crazy for choosing you....
Yet, before we even met, I knew who you are,
Who you're gonna be...

For the first time, I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, couldn't let you go,
Could let you out of my sight. Every time you with me,
my heart race.Your very existence makes me smile.

Tho you have your flaw, but who doesn't?
There's so much better ones out there for me, but you...
You kept trying, even if you know your limit,
each time you keeps on breaking them.
Everyday you surprised me. You've never given up, no matter what they say...

Tho sometimes have our misunderstandings,
I'll always gonna try to understand you,
And I know you too, struggling to understand me.
Little by little you shed some light to your life,
Little by little I started to understand you, how you see the world.
But, slowly I'm drifted...drifted to your world, world that I never knew existed...
Everything is so beautiful, you've made me see everything differently now.
Together we better each other.

You always be by my side, everyday, every minute..
I will never let you fall...I'll never let you go...
I'll protect you...together we'll get through It all...
I'm the one who's gonna catch you fall...
Even if saving you means sending me to heaven...

You've with me thru the rain, the sunny days, when the sun is setting,
Even when the waves are strong & crashing down on me,
I can always count on you to be by my side...
You were never afraid and so am I...

This post is dedicated to you...my dear...

Oly D-SLR!!! XDDDDDD

watcha expect? I love my camera, yeah, I have a thing for slr's:p.

sorry, just wanna release some tension.

~frosty~

The storm has passed....

2008-09-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

Woot, the baby hamster made It thru the night!! Gotta respect the soon-to-be lil' devil. Wonder what name I'm gonna give him...or her.

Now It's my turn to fight........with my assignments.

Let see...

Flower fonts, typeface book, another font poster thingy, photography's Ramadhan photo-report,
For computer graphic? Hmm..letsee....poster again. Ok, so far so good.

History of art, gotta compile a whole journal full of some old artist's works, biodata & what not...got ALL the data in my pendrive but It's missing...gah. Ah well.

For my final integrated project.....gotta do the batik thing again D: since It's clashing with some of my sem2 & 3 module, this time Its in 8 by 4 feet....., that's double the size of the last Batik lol.And It's about Sarawak Legend...Need to draw some sketches, rationale, do some research.

For my second integrated project, gotta draw something that copies the renaissance painter...for that I too gotta compile a whole journal,sketches, mind maps(?)

Woot! Seems like....'fun'.... oh well, gotta work hard now and then, luckily there's holiday coming up soon, ah~

Busy,busy~

~frosty~

After Death comes Life....

2008-09-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Speak of the devil, right after I wrote the last post about Death and all, I was granted with a new life! Pea the hamster gave birth lol.

They are so tiny and pink and SO naked lol xD

Another shot

Sorry for the blurry pics, I was trembling with excitement....:p

Actually there's two but another one died D':, I don't know if this one gonna make It through the night. Hopefully Death is not trying make fun of me after the last post...NOOOO! Okay okay, so I know you can actually kill people, but please leave the poor hamster out of this eh? >.<"

*Crosses fingers*, please stay alive, please stay alive little hamster >.<

~frosty~

"I ran & ran, but Death overtook me and stare me right in the eyes..."

2008-09-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

Okay, this is gonna be one hell of a bleak post. So don't read If ur not interested in discussing this kind of things. I'm warning ya!

Death, the ultimate end, the end of life as we know It. Everyday we live our life as if it's not gonna happen, or we try to forget entirely about that fact. That's a good thing, living our life thinking about death will constrict your life, strip the fun out of It, everything you're doing seems pointless.

No, you're NOT the God of Death, Kira! you freakin' poser!
No, Not you too! Who ever you are!
That's better, God of Death should be full of awesomeneSS

I'm gonna personify Death as a Person here for easier comprehension of my explanation.

Yeap, we always try to run away from Death, staying healthy, work out, play It safe with everything we do, keeping ourselves away from things that may harm us physically. But running with all your might, or just trying to forget about that fact is entirely useless.

Let's just say that Death will affect us with Its 'aura' now and then.(I know what yer thinkin "Haha,WTF?:p)

The emotions of a person who's facing death are:

Anxiety,

Loneliness,

The feeling of rejection,

Nervousness & stress,

The feelings of helplessness,

Melancholy(very deep feelings of sadness), grief,

Pain,

Fear, fear of not knowing what will happen, fear of not knowing what to do....

But did you notice? These are the exact same feelings we feels in our everyday life. This Is what I meant by Death sometimes pays us a visit.

No, there won't be anyone dying but there's the feelings of It or 'Him' like I like to address Death, feelings that 'He' evokes within us when he touches us, like the list of emotions that I listed down earlier.

That is why when these emotions of Death is too much, It will eventually lead to suicide. Are you with me so far?

We all heard of people who kill themselves when they have lost everything, lonely, heart-broken,experiencing deep feeling of sadness, pain and grief or even when there's too much stress & pressure.

Some people just shoot themselves in the head, jump of a building, hang themselves, those who resist Death Itself will go crazy. 'He' will have the last laugh. We don't want that now do we?

So, if you feel stress, nervous or whatever emotions that got to do with Death, think positive,resist It, that should drive Death away for a while.....I hope. So have fun, share your problems with your friends trust me, if they care they would be willing to listen, do something you like. Get a hamster..............................................................................xDDD

When you feel Death lurking around, don't give in to those feelings. Stare It right back in the eyes and laugh while saying arrogantly "You'll never gonna get me!, you'll NEVER gonna get ME!!! Ya' hear?!" and hop away like a little bunny that you are and hope that your not making Him angry :p.

People get easily stressed out nowadays, especially with assignments and stuff, fortunatly everyone around me is doing fine(I hope), I'm as happy as a kid in a candy store~ :p

Keep fighting ya'll!!! Do your best!!! & never give up!

Interesting fact:
There's four attitude towards Death, Death-denying, Death-desiring, Death-accepting & Death defying.

Skydivers, Moutain climbers, Stuntman, ot anyone who's doing anything life threathening are Death Defiers. They challange Death head on, Woot!! Gotta respect them.

Doctors or anyone who heals from a life threatening sickeness are Death-Denier, they'll try to protect people from death.

Suicide bombers, some rare individuals or people thats has come to term with Death on the dying bed are Death-accepter.

Death-desirer is a bit rare, It doesn't affect a whole culture but rather individuals. Suddenly Emos comes to mind here...hmm, maybe is beacuse all of those self harm thats going on with them...
But in the olden day, some lovers are Death-desirer, they believe that they will be reunited in Death.....=.=" WTF?

In the Greek Mithology, they even romanticize Death, as we can see here in this painting by John William Waterhouse (1849-1917). Thanathos,God of Death with his twin brother Hypnos, God of Sleep.Hypnos's son Is Morpheus, The God of Dream. Interesting eh? Gotta love those Geeks...um I mean Greeks with their wild imaginations!

Well, this is just how I see Death anyway. Peace out ^.^y

~frosty~

Just some thoughts....

2008-09-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

In my 21 years or so life span, I must admit, I've learned a lot, from the interesting people around me. But surprisingly, I've never grown attached to most of them. It's not that I have any problem with them, It's like they just walk into my life, teach me something new & just vanish. Yet, they have left a deep impression in my life, I never ever have any regrets meeting them, weather they have done me wrong or bad. Now I just wanna share some of the things I've learned.

Enjoy your youth, eventho we feel like we'll be teenagers forever, time will eventually overtake us. I known an uncle in a supermarket which I once worked part time with, yes, I DO work. He's already in his late thirties, working as a regular sales assistant for the past 6 years. Everyday I hear his regrets, regrets that he didn't spend his youth wisely, how he could only get his time back.

In a few years time, 10 - 20 years in the future. We'll be looking back at photos of ourselves, how great we looked back then. No, your not as fat, thin,small or ugly like you imagine. Forget about yourself, involve in the life of others. Life will pass slower that way, I think, worrying & anxiety will only make you grow older, faster :p

After going thru a few failed romantic relationships in the past(now don't go 'awwww' on me dammit lol). I know that It requires a lot of dedication, relationships won't always be a bed of roses. Heck, even a bed of roses sometimes are full of thorns.

Don't be reckless with people's heart, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

It's not about finding someone just to satisfy your infatuation, your lust,temporary feelings of loneliness. But instead It's about finding someone to share your whole life with, to be together,carry each other's burden, to love or to hate....till the very last breath.

I found that 'love partner' during teenage years is rather redundant. Partners are the person who'll support you & help you grow, love & care for you, being there for you when you're all alone, but we keep forgetting that we got our family for that.

People keep missing the points about boy/girlfriends, They are not toys so you can have some fun with, show off to your friends or whatever. They are meant to be the person for you to spend your life with.

If your not serious about It, just forget about It in the first place. It'll save a lot of tears & heartbreak.

The Only time when you really do need that special someone is when you've moved out of your house, away from your family, got your own job, that is the time when your family is not there for you anymore to watch your back, then It's time to create your OWN family.

The same with friends, true friends are like brothers of the same blood, they won't care about your feelings sometimes, they might be rude,make fun of you, hurt your feelings or get you annoyed all of the time, but isn't that what true brothers or sisters do?

We get on each others nerves but in the end we had fun & laughs out of those silly quarrels and just forget about It afterward lol. Or maybe that's just me.>.<" Friends might come and go but the really precious ones will stick with you forever. Don't stick with the ones who'll anchor you down. They might guide you and show you the way but in the end It's up to you to make your own choice, It's your life after all. Never EVER let ANYONE strip you of your rights to make your own decision.

Forget insults, remember the compliments you received but don't let It get into your head.

Don't waste your time with jealousy, or anything of the sort. Who cares about the achievements of others, in the end you are your own rival, compete with yourself. Improve yourself everyday, remember what you did yesterday & go from there, and without you even know It, you'll be better than anyone else.

This might be an obvious one, love & get to know your parents, they might bombard us with advice & such. Been there, done that. But we gotta face It, we'll never know when they gonna leave us. Cherish their existence.

Never read beauty magazines,shows or whatever. they'll make you feel ugly & consequently lowers your self-esteem. Everyone has their own definition of beauty, It's NOT skin deep, trust me, I've met a few good looking people with an ugly soul. Be content with your body, weather It's petite, over sized, frail, strong, thin or chubby ..don’t be afraid of it, what people think of It doesn't matter, a paranoid mind can blind you of your actual looks.

Don't let people support you too much. If they fall, you'll fall, be self sufficient. Though I know the greatest thing about life is being able to trust another, supporting each other. We ARE social being afterall. But we must know how to take care of ourselves before helping someone else, or else It'll be like the case of 'the blind leading the blind'

Read books. Interesting books that will teach you something new each day. Psychology & philosophy books teaches me something that took philosopher or researchers centuries to understand, something that I could not ever learned on my own in my lifetime. Read books that will uplift you, but don't just read It, put It into practice.

Too much knowledge will never hurt...although I can't seem to pick up & read that early morning newspaper lol. Maybe one of these days....maybe...

Next thing I wanna do Is travel the whole world, we should see new places & culture, God didn't create this world just so we can sit around & stay at one place. Stone henge, Great wall of China, Eiffel tower, Niagara Falls are just some of the places that's on my list.

Pretty amazing how much you can learn If we just spend the time to listen to other people, especially people with problems. I know everything I wrote here sounds corny or 'gai' or whatever but seriously, these are how I truly view the world. If only I can let you see how I see things....

p/s: sorry if you found any typos, my English need a bit more brushing, I know lol.

Peace ya'll, If some part of seems offensive, forgive me. It was purely unintended.

~frosty~

"Every moment...captured in photo, that is my dream"

2008-09-22T03:47:00.000+08:00

While reorganizing my photos just now(which eats up almost 40% of my hardrive!o.O"), I stumbled upon some interesting old pics. Lol. Glad I always got my camera, without It all these sentimental photos would have been just memories. Ahah. Enjoy.

'The Gang' Good old times....

Yen & Azie, both having sugar rush lol.

Mr Bunny & Ms Angel

Eric's cute pose.....failed xD

Dex cute pose, awww....:p

Dominic a.k.a Radhi O.A.G. ahah

Uncle & Dex, lol

Just another day at Wings Cafe

Jim, having his 'jiwang' moment

Guess who lol, just have to put him in here, poor scarf =p

Muka Kimak - As Eric would put It lol. Just kidding, this is, of course, the infamous Jimmyniyay!

Well, actually there's more. Will dig up & upload some more if I got the time.

Final word of wisdom
"Appreciate the people and things around you because they won't be there forever."

~frosty~

In the end, We ALL are under one roof ;)

2008-09-19T18:54:00.000+08:00

One, cloudy thursday afternoon.
Place: Wings Cafe

Dex: Hey, wanna go to the roof man?
Me:Huh?
Dex:Roof. Have You even been there?
Me:Yeah, once. Sure.
Dex:Yen!
Yen, sitting at the next table: Yes?
Dex: *Doing some kind of ventriloquist act, his lips appeared saying 'roof!' while pointing towards the ceiling* Then he did that 'sshhh~' while pointing to this other guy :p
Yen:Ok(....or something xD)

from there our story unfolds..lol

So we went to the rooftop that day, we were freakin' bored & It didn't appear to be THAT sunny that day lest It would be suicide being there in the middle of the afternoon, so what the heck.:)

Dex: Let's take picture together! (Yen next to him)
Yen, Doing 'Peace' sign lol. But her finger was slower than her face reaction. So this is what you get xD

Aw My F**King GAWD! Giant Mutated Man Killing Hamster on the ROOF! xDDD

The 'Aaaaa~!*insert angelic voice here*' as Dex would put It. Love this one, photoshoped to put emphasize on the light rays.

Dex, lol.

Yen, walking slowly, afraid the roof might give in.

Oh yea, Rosa was there too:D Yen seen here doing some kind of exotic dance from an unknown region.
Dex's Idea, pretty cool shot :D

Well that's about It. After 'lepak'-ing for a while, we head inside coz It started to rain. Who knew hanging out at the rooftop can be fun. Haha, love u guys.

~frosty~

Can't stand the heat?

2008-09-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

I'm bored, so I'm gonna write something now.And since I'm wearing a jacket now & that's the first thing that pops into my mind right now let's talk about jackets...NOW! :p (now..na..now.now.now....whoa!I AM bored>.<") I always like jackets, sweater or hoodie, they're quite comfortable to wear. you'll never see me wearing T-shirts around college, no, not me!. Ok so maybe once in a blue moon. lol. Below are just some of them.
My all-around jacket, protective, durable, & cold on the inside. Besides It got a detachable hood & lotsa pockets, which is always useful. If that's not enough I can always pair it up with my cargo pants, double the pocket, double the fun! xD
I like the design of this one, never really use It tho

Of course, my everyday sweaters, or jumpers like some people like to call em' they're comfy & u can just dump em' in the washing machine when need cleaning.

This three? also don't use em that much, the only reason I bought them is because they costs less than 30bucks each. Ow yea, I even pair up the sleeveless vest with my first jacket when I need the extra pockets, lol.

Aha, and of course, this one. My half-leather jacket. Bought this one during my first cosplay event. Cosplaying as Leon S Kennedy from Resident Evil 4(which most people mistaken for Squall Leonhart Final Fantasy8>.<"). It's not really practical to use but surprisingly the inner fur-like material feels quite cool to the skin. But still, I do use It now and then If I feel like It.

Well, It looked almost identical. lol.

Ok, the most common misconception people have about jacket or beanie hat/snowcap & stuff is you only need to use them when It's cold. But surprise surprise, can you imagine if you expose a metal under direct sun shine, & compare that to a metal that's covered by something, I don't have to tell you which one is hotter.

The Idea of jackets is to protect the skin from outer elements, including heat. Go to any desert and you wont find anyone crazy enough to walk around without wearing full body & head clothes. They even wear a full coat complete with scarf xD(see picture above)

The only problem arise only when the heat is coming from the inside of the body, running around wearing jackets or sweater is NOT a good Idea, Or when the air is humid. You'll end up sweating like a half-dead pig>.<".

Some people finds It weird how can I wear jacket even when Its like scorching hot outside, some people finds It irrational even, lol. Well now you know why, I'm just to lazy to explain It in person when people ask, besides I'll bore u guys with my yapping like I am right now.

Whoa, My boredom is cured xD . thx for reading anyway. peace

~frosty~

Let's mooncake-ing!

2008-09-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

Okay, since I've been tagged to post these pics. Here ya go. For those who don't know, these are the pics during last friday mooncake Cosplay event. We were invited to liven up the event, since everyone was free & already finished their assignment that day, we gladly accept the invitation.:D

Dex, Eric & Jim were also present that day. After that night, seeing us cosplaying,they seem to have developed some interest in cosplay & say that they wanna join us cosplaying next time!!!

.........................................

.....ok,so maybe I lied:p

Aaanyway, without further ado, here are the pics.

Pea the hamster really wanna follow us that day,she even volunteered to become our photographer. How can I possibly refuse that cute face of hers? xDDDD

Ngumbang and Ajay. Ajay attempting to catch a bullet fired at point-blank range with his bare nostrill. Which at the end landed him in the Guiness Book of Epic Failure.

Mwaahaha~!

Shikamaru & L, lol.

A group of dancer from some dancing school.

Yen, Sugar-rushing.:p

Lol, Kenan

Girl Power,haha. Love this shot.

Another angle

Yen a.k.a Naruto and her bestest friend that night xD. Dun kill me :p

Intel doing his rare cute pose

Mooncakes!

Promoting the mooncake stall, haha. well at least we all got some free mooncake each:p

Another angle

Well, that's about It. Eventho the whole event lasted like 2 1/2 hours only. I can see that everyone had fun that night:D. After that we went to get some late night dinner at the Food Avenue.

~frosty~

It's all in your head

2008-09-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

Like I said in my very first post, I always have a heart for psychology, the art of understanding human behavior. I like to know why people do the things they do, what makes people tick, call me crazy but that's just who I am. One of my all time fave reading material is the 'American Handbook of Psychiatry'

I bought this book from Book Castle some time ago for a measly 15bucks! It's even in mint condition, figures, no 'normal' person would be interested in this kind of reading. but alas, I'm not your 'normal' person :) It's an almost complete research on the human behavior. What makes it so interesting is it has a lot of thought provoking articles.

...And depression.

No doubt learning stuff like this has helped me a lot. I mean A LOT. It somewhat helped me to prepare for everything that might come in my way & see people in a different way. It has taught me that some people's personality are governed on how they are nurtured, not by nature.
This way, I'm always prepared mentally. No deaths, failure, back-stabbing, break ups or whatever life gonna throw at me will weigh me down, hey, whatever happens, just gotta stay 'frosty' eh:p

and of course, to prepare myself physically, I always got this:

Which help me to self diagnosis. Yea, I know I know, You might think I'm weird, or paranoid to study all this but sometimes we just gotta except, we'll never know when we're gonna be alone, no one's there for us to rely on, to help us when we're drowning. Sometime you gotta learn how to survive on your own, help yourself....and who knows, you might be able to help someone else in need along the way.

Trusting another person with my life & mental well-being has always not an easy thing for me. Everyday I see people trusts being destroyed as if It were nothing. It happen so often that It's not even funny anymore.

That's why learning about all of this rather...'boring' stuff will help me to get thru life smoothly...now and then.

"Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music - the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself."

~frosty~

Closer,CLOSER!

2008-09-11T17:57:00.000+08:00

I love my Zuiko macro lens xD. Like I said earlier, It has opened up a whole new world, world of macrophotography. These are just some of the photos that I took, even mundane objects can be so interesting, well at least to me. enjoy.

Grip of a mechanical pencil. Gritty~
Just showing some skin babeey~!

My winter bracelet, ahah.
The Ring
Colors~ =]
'Im'ma gonna kill ur familyyyy!' says Pea the hamster :p

Rock Eagle :D

My precious....~Zuiko 14-42mm xDDD

Liquid magma, love this one.

Fly,apparently blinded by our flashes that day,ahah.My eye, sorry a bit shakey. There's an earthquake that day :p

Jim's eye lol.the things we do in class...sigh~ xD

Below are some of the photos taken by either Azie or Yen with the lens, can't remember who.

Art eraser...definitely,positively Yen's Idea lol.

Next lens on my wish list...

ZUIKO DIGITAL ED 9-18mm 1:4.0-5.6!!

I sense some early christmas present coming up. WOOT!! Ur mine baby...soon...ALL MINEEE~~~!!!!1111one,one....MWAHAHAH!

ah-hem~ sorry. Talking to myself there. Frosty signing off :p

~frosty~

Painting with lights

2008-09-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I went to Friendship Park, last Saturday after our club's meeting at Swinburne College me,Yen, Kenan, Gary, Swing & the other guy who I have no idea what his name is(sorry lol) went there for a short photography session since most of us had our SLR with us.

I edited most of the pics so It should look like painting. I like the effect. Hey, you know what they say, a good painting looks like photograph while a good photograph looks like painting. Eh?lol

'The Garden'

The gate with two lion statues guarding It, which apparently serves as badminton court too.

'China House' which under renovation since FOREVER. tsk tsk

'The Kenan' ahah

'7th Heaven'

'Framed out' Love this pics.

'Zephyranthes'
'Standing tall'

'Kick the house,Hyah!' :p Love the effect

'Creature feature'

'Innocence'

'Leaf-me-not'

'Sunset Buddies'
'Bloom'

'Flamenco'

'William & co.' Ex LimKokWing lecturer & his niece. What a surprise =D

'So close yet so far'
'Seeing Blue'

Well that's about It, we're supposed to go to Angel's birthday party which coincidentally fell on the same day but since I was kinda sweaty & tired(& of coz the flu that's been bugging me the whole day>.<") so I decided to pass for now. Ah well. In the end, I enjoyed myself, couldn't had wish for a better day:). I love photography =D

~frosty~

Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Writer

2008-09-05T04:21:00.000+08:00

Okay, know I'm gonna talk about one of my all time favorite philosopher/writer, Ambrose Bierce 1842-1914. He was once a scout in the Union Army but after he retired he works as a regular columnist and editorialist a newspaper company. There in lies our story.

All the terrible things he has experienced during the war has inspired him to write some of the best short stories & article. One of his famous work is the 'Devil's Dictionary' which was originally a newspaper serialization, It offered an interesting but distorted reinterpretation of the English words, which surprisingly carries some truth in it These are just some of It:

ABNORMAL, adj. Not conforming to standard. In matters of thought and conduct, to be independent is to be abnormal, to be abnormal is to be detested.
ACQUAINTANCE, n. A person whom we know well enough to borrow from, but not well enough to lend to. A degree of friendship called slight when its object is poor or obscure, and intimate when he is rich or famous.
ADVICE, n. The smallest current coin.
ADMIRATION, n. Our polite recognition of another's resemblance to ourselves.
APOLOGIZE, v.i. To lay the foundation for a future offence.
ASS, n. A public singer with a good voice but no ear.
BEHAVIOR, n. Conduct, as determined, not by principle, but by breeding.
BORE, n. A person who talks when you wish him to listen.
BRAIN, an apparatus with which we think we think.
BOUNDARY, n. In political geography, an imaginary line between two nations, separating the imaginary rights of one from the imaginary rights of the other.
CALAMITY, n. A more than commonly plain and unmistakable reminder that the affairs of this life are not of our own ordering. Calamities are of two kinds: misfortune to ourselves, and good fortune to others.
CAT, n. A soft, indestructible automaton provided by nature to be kicked when things go wrong in the domestic circle.
CONGRATULATION, n. The modest confession of jealousy.
COWARD, n. One who in a perilous emergency thinks with his legs.
CUPID, n. The so-called god of love. This bastard creation of a barbarous fancy was no doubt inflicted upon mythology for the sins of its deities. Of all unbeautiful and inappropriate conceptions this is the most reasonless and offensive. The notion of symbolizing sexual love by a semisexless baby, and comparing the pains of passion to the wounds of an arrow.
DEBT, n. An ingenious substitute for the chain and whip of the slave-driver.
EDIBLE, adj. Good to eat, and wholesome to digest, as a worm to a toad, a toad to a snake, a
snake to a pig, a pig to a man, and a man to a worm.
FORK, n. An instrument used chiefly for the purpose of putting dead animals into the mouth.
FRIENDSHIP, n. A ship big enough to carry two in fair weather, but only one in foul.
FUNERAL, n. A pageant whereby we attest our respect for the dead by enriching the undertaker, and strengthen our grief by an expenditure that deepens our groans and doubles our tears.
GHOST, n. The outward and visible sign of an inward fear.
HOPE, n. Desire and expectation rolled into one.
IMAGINATION, n. A warehouse of facts, with poet and liar in joint ownership.
LOVE, n. A temporary insanity curable by marriage
MARRIAGE, n. The state or condition of a community consisting of a master, a mistress and two slaves.
POSITIVE, adj. Mistaken at the top of one's voice.
Politeness, n. The most acceptable hypocrisy.
PRAY, v. To ask that the laws of the universe be annulled in behalf of a single petitioner confessedly unworthy.

well these are just some of It, If you guys are interested in more, head to The Devil Dictionary

What Bierce has taught me is that no matter how positive you may be, after you have seen & experienced the 'real' world. It's hard to stay optimist anymore, and yet at the same time he's not a pessimist. But he's what I like to call a 'logical' person.

Expect too much good things from the world and we'll end up disappointed ALL of the time, instead live for the moment & just face everything that comes in your way.

Well to tell you the truth, I always expect bad things to happen to me, I found It less frustrating & disappointing that way, & If good things do happen(which surprisingly, frequently does!) you'll feel THAT much happier because you never expect It to happen in the first place.

And honestly, that's why It doesn't take much to make me laugh or smile either, seeing friends, walking under the sun shine, living in a war free country, people making..uh...lame jokes is just some of the things people take for granted.(okay, maybe not the last part.) Yeah It sounds pathetic but hey, my life is good.ahah.

well that's all for now.

~frosty~

Queen of the Night. I've found thee, ahah.

2008-09-03T02:06:00.000+08:00

Last night, or this morning to be precise around 2 a.m, I was looking for the moon to photograph since I can't sleep(too much coffee I guess>.<") & I wanna practice my night shots with my tele-photo lens. I look & look for the moon but to no avail. I can't find the freakin' moon! probably coz of the thick clouds in the sky:/

But wait....I saw something white-ish in my mom's mini garden...

I was treated with a nice surprise instead.

Lo & behold! The Night Queen! & four of 'em.
I heard about this flower from my mom but I've never seen It actually bloom right in front of my eyes. , It belongs to the Hylocereus family, the same species as the cactus plant. And apperantly It's also the same type of flower that bear fruit to the Dragon Fruit.

It's HUGE! well not as huge as the Rafflesia but nonetheless It's the biggest flower I ever saw.
(My hand for comparison)It's bigger than my palm wide open o.O"

The interesting about this flower is that It only bloom around midnight and wither & dies at the first sight of the morning sun which earned It the nick-name 'Queen of the Night' or 'Moonflower' It supposedly smells nice but thanks to my stuffy nose I can't smell anything >.<" There's two more outside the front gate & another two that haven't bloom yet.
It sort of reminds me of a shuttlecock o.O"

Well It kinda sad to see this beautiful flower have such a short life-span, I guess this is one of the beauty of nature that will never be brought to light(pun intended). No ones there to admire It's beauty, by the time someone's there, It's already dead..

It's like you're living for something but you will never know who or what are you living for....somehow this flower holds a significant meaning to me.

ah well, I'm thinking too much again :p......

~frosty~

Flu, boo-hoo

2008-09-01T07:59:00.000+08:00

Gah, I hate flu, headache or any other kind of sickness I can handle but I guess I'll never get use to flu. :/ ah well, hopefully It wont drag for several weeks like last time. o.O"

~frosty~

lol, this is my shortest post ever:p

Partaay! Masquerade style!

2008-08-30T14:28:00.000+08:00

Last night Lim Kok Wing or the student council to be exact, held a masquerade party, right in our very own college.

Arsita the Lost Bali queen, Yen the fairy princess depicted here wearing high heels & gown for the very first time & joker, THE joker. Yep, the antagonist from the dark night is still alive guys.
Our two African friends, doing....um.....something.

Going to party can make you pregnant, regardless whether your male or female

Wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~! Chris, singing passionately :p

Geli Mat main gitar:p

Hugging session....this looks wrong o.O"
Bunny's leg. o.O" sumhow this pics matches the pics above It :p

LOL, @ azizan

Best King & 3rd back queen of the night xD sorry for the red eye >.<" After that, everything went blurry, time to bust some moves on the dance floor xD
Used slow sync flash to illustrate the movement & craziness of the dance, I like!

Dance like there's no tomorrow!

Move over, the queen is cometh!

The joker.....having the last laugh...mwahaha...

Well that's about It, after that we had a little barbecue & some of the guys head somewhere to get some drinks. The moral of this story, ALWAYS prepare enough drinks for parties like this.

The end

~frosty~

Someone please save us, us college Kids xD

2008-08-22T07:02:00.000+08:00

Ahah, I love this song by Relient K xD, one of my favorite indie band, some of their other songs that I like are 'Be My Escape', 'Must've done something right' & 'Who I am hates who I've been'

Relient K - College Kids

Someone please save us, us college kids!
What my parents told me is what I did
They said go to school and be a college kid
But in the end I question why I did

I'm poor, I'm starving, I'm flat broke, Ive got no cash to spend
Sell all my books for front row tickets to Dave Matthew's band
My girlfriends at another school, I know this year will test her
I called, found out she had three other boyfriends last semester

And thats why I say
Oh no! not for me, not for me
Call it torture, call it university
No! arts and crafts is all I need
Ill take calligraphy and then Ill make a fake degree

80 grand later I found out that all that I had learned
Is that you should show up to take your finals and your midterms
The party scene is kinda mean, I think its sick and twisted
The navy showed up at my dorm and claimed that I enlisted

And thats why I say
Oh no! not for me, not for me
Call it torture, call it university
No! arts and crafts is all I need
Ill take calligraphy and then Ill make a fake degree

Don't get excited. shell say no without a doubt you see
And Ive decided college girls just wont go out with me
They make me nervous and they always catch me off my guard
Like cell phone services I drop out cause college is too hard

Its time to call my father
Cause its his alma mater
Good grades aren't what they seem
I think he knows the dean
Its time to call my father
Cause its his alma mater
He says hes proud of me
But college always was his dream
And I would always say its not for me

Oh no! not for me, not for me
Call it torture, call it university
No! arts and crafts is all I need
Ill take calligraphy and then Ill make a fake degree

Someone please save us, us college kids!
What my parents told me is what I did
They said go to school and be a college kid
But in the end I question why I did

Do what will make you happy
Do what you feel is right
Only but one thing matters
Learn how to live your life

[in background:]
(phi, beta, delta, cappa
Someone please save us, us college kids!
What my parents told me is what I did
They said go to school and be a college kid
But in the end I question why I did)

Do what will make God happy
Do what you feel is right
Only but one thing matters
Learn how to live your life

Woot! haha.

2008-08-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

My family just arrived from Kajang today, visiting my Sis who's working there. I was supposed to come with them but the sem is starting so I just have to skip It this time. Alas, I was left alone in Kuching for this past 5 days, man. I though leaving alone was gonna be fun....and It Is! xD(except for the washing up & laundry part >.<")

Picked them at at 5.30 from the airport just now. Took a bite at KFC while waiting xD.

We have to cramp everything in the back sit of my Kancil since the boot is overloaded with bags lol. My mom have bag fetish, each time she came back from traveling, she ALWAYS bought bags, not just your everyday bag, ya know, those luggage bag for when ur moving house? o.O"

Anyywaaaaayyy................lol

She bought some stuff for my Oly that I asked her to buy for me in K.L since everything is so freakin cheap there with all the mega sale thingie going on. Here It is:
FL-50R GN50 Wireless flash system &....

Zuiko 35mm f/3.5 MACRO lens that's made from the legendary Zuiko-standard glass! \^.^/"

The flash cost Rm 1,499.00 while the lens is around Rm894.oo something o.O" Man It was sure worth It xD.
Check out these macro shots I took just now, can you guess what some of these are?

The first one is a cucumber slice, the 3rd a Banana while the last one is the close-up photo of our sofa lol.

Man, this lens has introduced a whole new branch of photography for me to learn, Macrophotoraphy. Everything is so different from up close. Sorry for the bad shots, this baby need some time to get used to. It's a feisty one, one wrong move & you'll end up with blurry photo, well more fun for me then, I love the challenge ahah.

The flash? well It's a whole new game for me, I always hate using flash in my photos coz It makes everything looks...um....un-flashy >.<" 'Contrasty' shadows everywhere & skin tones almost always turns out pale. But after seeing a few great flash-photography pics & some encouragement from my photography lecturer I thought I wanna give It a shot.

Well, that's all from me for now, time to get to some more practicing with these new gears, It would be a waste If I bought It & don't master on how to use It eh? Well,thx for reading. Yea, I'm a sucker for anything photography If you haven't noticed yet xP

~frosty~

I love the whole world, & all Its Craziness , boom-bee-ya-dah!

2008-08-19T07:59:00.000+08:00

"Always bring your camera wherever you go, you'll never know when you're gonna need It, a photographer without his Camera is as good as naked" Says Simon, our photography lecturer.

& waddaya know, while my friend Remy is snapping picture of a tree(I' was driving) near Saberkas yesterday.....

Yay, nice pics, ....Huh? what's that In the distance?

Let's move closer....!!!! Remy! Look at that! Quick! Take picture! take picture!xP

No not that super sale banner! argh!

The road is jam anyway so I can drive slowly...let's move a bit closer...
?!! What the? Unless this is the rehearsal for the Merdeka day parachute jump I think this guy is attempting suicide! o.O"
Kuching Citizens...gather together & by channeling their psychic power, they tried to move the man to safety...yea right! As usual, the traffic jam was caused by these onlooker, blocking the road just to watch some free live drama, typical Malaysian.I love them xD

Another shot, It looks like he's tired so he decided to head back in for a while before doing It again, Hey, It's not easy to attempt suicide ya know, It requires determination & courage LOL

I don't understand these weird people, this is the second time people attempting suicide at Wisma Saberkas, but I gotta give my applause to the 1st one tho, he tried to jump from the TOP OF THE BUILDING itself0.0" so basically this guy is a wuss o.O"

Suicide is like cheating u'r way thru life, Hey, everyones' else life sucks too. Killing urself is like saying 'I quit!' to God. No doubt about It that u'll end up in Hell & u can't quit from there just by Killing urself again. =.="

~Sigh~ Life is miserable, Life is though but that what makes everything worthwhile, You can never know what's happiness without knowing what is sadness beforehand. Nor people know what is 'Sweet' without tasting 'Bitterness' in the first place.

Life goes on man, You wouldn't be in this world in the first place if God know you're not up to It. Pfft, I hate quitter, I was one so I know how It feels. Thanks to some friend I got back up & fighting again, Life is getting harder & harder especially with school works, relationships & stuff but I've promised to myself I'll never gonna quit again. Remember once your soul gave up, your body will die.

Lastly A quote by Henry David Thoreau

"All endeavor calls for the ability to tramp the last mile, shape the last plan, endure the last hours toil. The fight to the finish spirit is the one... characteristic we must posses if we are to face the future as finishers."

~frosty~

Akiyame Damai Outing

2008-08-16T21:41:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 6a.m, phew. Damn it's cold. Going to Damai today for our Akiyame Club Outing, woot. It's been awhile since I went to the beach so I was really looking forward to It. Besides It's a good time to meet the new members & get to know each other.
Sunrise, taken from our very own Wing's Cafe, I use custom white balance to give it a 'Punchier' look.

And It just so happened that today is also the day the futsal members going to have their match with some other college. Arthur & Toby did their ritual dance before the match xD

After everyone was ready, It's time to head out. I let Kenan drive my car so I'm free to take photo during the whole trip, ahah.
Sumone is enjoying themselves at the back lol.

Look ma, no Hand!What the?! Kenan, Ur supposed to pay attention to the road in front of you while driving!
A.M.A.I haha.

The arrival, Man, I miss the ocean.

Rare cloud formation o.O

Lol, Big pointer suddenly appeared out of no where in the sky.

Lance with his Hermit crab friend.:)

Azie, Yen & Sanda doing....something.
Frankie, with sands on his head. xD
Ceres(?)

Angela

Swing Riding Yen the human Dugong. ROFL

Look, They'r building Gundam out of sand, ahah.

Another shot

Gah, Ur gonna ruin my lens Azie!

Self Explanatory xD

Friends

Dugong with built in Antenna lol.

U can also use It as a leash! ahah.

Building sand cat

Yen's creation

Under construction

OMG, cat with pointy boobs!

"Don't destroy my cat!" says Yen. :p

Leaving my footprint in the sand of time...haha

Poop!

Cloudy Clouds

Im'ma jumpin!
Woot, haha

Lol, no comment.

Peace!

That's our cue to Barbecue! It took us like 1hour to light the fire lol.

Owh look! a lone flower! Says me. xD

So our outing ended around 6p.m. But before that, group photo time!

The Cat pose
Free pose

The infamous Cute pose! LOL, we just have to do It.

The 'Look over there! a Monkey!' pose xD
The 'Pose' pose

The 'ZOMG!!!!' pose

Then everyone head home after that. Phew, It was tiring but It was all worth It lol.
Couldn't resist, lol. A 'MAD' Waja in front of Azie's house

Steven, sleeping in the back seat. ahah.

Before we went home, we're still a bit hungry so Me, Kenan & Steven had a small dinner near Hui Sing.

Well that wraps everything up for today! I need to visit the beach more often. Signing off...

~frosty~

I'm Mr Complain, Yea My Life is shit :D

2008-08-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

Life can be hard once in a while, as optimistic as I am(lol), I do get into the 'mood' sometimes, hey, I'm a human too ya know. When I'm kinda sick of someone or something around me, this song by Ellegarden really cheer me up, I can listen to It all day long, over & over again till I'm 'recovered' again xD. It's in 'Engrish'(Japanese English). So pardon their weird slang, hey but I think they sound kinda unique.It is called 'Mr. Feather. Enjoy :)

Hey Mr. Feather do you think you're really fly
Hey Mr. Clever she is fool enough to trust you
Hey Mr. Stupid you are not like anyone
Hey Mr. Famous I don't know your real name
Hey Mr. Tiny your dream is so big
Hey Mr. Clumsy what you've made is so art(tistic)
Hey Mr. Doubtful don't you trust yourself at all
I'm Mr. Complain
Yeah my life is shit

Give me something that's I'll never fail
Give me something that I understand
Give me something that I'll never lose again

Hey Mr. Smiley do you smile when you are sad
Hey Mr. Crazy where is the border of sanity
Hey Mr. Jealous hope you don't have any secrets
Hey Mr. Money what do you want for next Christmas
Hey Mr. Perfect have you ever pulled it off
I'm Mr. Complain
Yeah my life is shit

Give me something that I'll never fail
Give me something that I understand
Give me something that I'll never lose again
You are not here You are not here You are not here beside me
You are not here You are not here You are not here
Yeah my life is shit

Mr. Feather do you think you're really fly
Mr. Clever she is fool enough to trust you

Give me something that's I'll never fail
Give me something that I understand
Give me something that I'll never lose again

~frosty~

A new sem, the same old same old.

2008-08-12T02:05:00.000+08:00

Phew, The new semester has officially started, even though whole two months of holidays has passed It seems as if it never happened. Well, maybe It's just me.

Then again a lot has happened during the holiday. Been busy with the club doing charities & photo shoots, a whole week of dancing lesson, meetings & stuff. Met new people & created some new 'social links'. Quite the achievement for someones who's always known for keeping to himself:p

Immersed myself in more books on photography & philosophy, there's no such thing as too much knowledge eh?

From now on I know the road will be a bumpy one, just hope that I won't stray off course & plunge right into the ditch, ahah. Already in sem 3 now & college will end faster than I think, might as well savor every minutes of It.

~frosty~

LOL! A MUST read post!

2008-08-09T03:10:00.000+08:00

Ok, while surfing the net looking for something to read, I stumbled upon this interesting article about how to be the perfect boyfriend & girlfriend from a humor site. It's kinda funny so I wanna share It with ya'll xD

note: SOME part are NOT, I repeat are NOT supposed to be taken seriously. This article is for entertainment purposes only.;)

How To Be The Perfect Boyfriend

How to be the perfect boyfriend: Being the perfect boyfriend can be a bit of a challenge, but here's how it's done! Be the perfect boyfriend with helpful suggestions and you'll never let your partner down again!

Step 1:: Listen to her; Girls like to talk a lot, about things you don't really understand such as shopping, makeup, and feelings. It's important to seem interested no matter how confused you are because girls value communication above all things. If you do lose the thread, and she suddenly demands a response, here are a few phrases that may come in useful: "What an interesting story!" or "I can't believe it, tell me again- in more detail" or if all else fails- "oh sorry, I was just thinking about how much I love you."
Step 2:: Love her friends and family; No matter how great you think you are, you're not the only person in her life. Her family and friends are also important to her. Remember key facts about them, such as their names - so you avoid saying things like 'oh her, the fat one with the hair'

Try and make them your friends too. This way, when you screw up and she runs crying to them, you've got someone on the inside. Remember hell hath no fury like a woman's friends.
Step 3:: Be a man; In the olden days, it was all about be a mans man, then it was briefly about being a woman's man, now its about being the perfect man. The operative word here is 'man'.
Sure you can carry her bag, open doors, and pump iron,
But can you be supportive and facilitate her ability to achieve? Has she got a new job? Give her a call. Has she written a poem? Read it. And if she's afraid of the dark? Be the one who turns on the light.
Step 4:: In the bedroom; When it comes to bedtime, and matters of the night you need to be play your woman like a piano - you can play a soft sonata, some freeform jazz, or a drive time power ballad. Whatever song she's in the mood for, play it well and you're bound to get an encore.
Step 5:: Surprise her; Take her out for dinner! Buy her some flowers! If it's been a good month treat her to a mini-break! This last option is fantastic, as it gives her ample opportunity to reward you.
Step 6:: Be hygienic; The perfect man is the wind beneath her wings not the wind beneath the duvet. Be respectful, contain and disguise your bodily odours. She does it, why can't you?
Shower regularly, always brush your teeth and stay well groomed.

Top Tip: Deodorant is for after the shower, not instead of it.
Step 7:: Be faithful; If you're with this girl it's for a reason, decide early if you're serious about her, and then never ever mess around.; Done; Have fun with your girlfriend.

....and of course, for the girls.

How To Be The Perfect Girlfriend

How to be the perfect girlfriend: With just a few simple tips, you can be the perfect girlfriend - making him want to be the perfect boyfriend. Learn how to do all you need to, to be come the perfect girlfriend and look after your little caveman.

Step 1:: Relax your standards; The perfect girlfriend is not a plastic doll. While you should endeavour to maintain your femininity, once in a while let your guard down: eat like a pig, slouch around, or leave the washing up. This way he will feel comfortable in your presence, and you in his.
Step 2:: But make an effort; With this in mind, remember that it is important to make an effort and sometimes dress up special. We know it's not practical all the time, but he'll appreciate it, and you'll feel more attractive.
Step 3:: Massage his ego; Remember that the male ego is as fragile as it was all those years ago when he first lost his way back to the cave. Make your boyfriend feel good about himself - even if he is getting in your way- let him be useful and tell him he's great. Don't nag him into submission, as there is nothing sexy about a downtrodden man.
You know the bed's not made properly, but congratulate him on having a go. You know that isn't an omelette, but it contains eggs doesn't it? So well done him!
Step 4:: Feed him; Like it or not, the old adage is true - the way to a man's heart is through his stomach. You don't have to cook, but keep your local takeaway on speed dial. Remember if your boyfriend is hungry, his attention will shift suddenly from you to the fridge. Don't take it personally, it's primal. Symptoms of hunger to look out for include: grumpiness, slightly flared nostrils or he may appear to be hunting. If he gets like this, don't suggest salad.
Step 5:: Give him space; A man's friends are important to him, and so is his ability to spend time with them, where he will do male activities like growling, fighting and measuring things, simple pursuits that confuse a complex female mind. Allow him the space to maintain these relationships. Let him roam, and when he comes home he'll be ready to spend quality time with you.
Step 6:: Listen to him; Men enjoy explaining things. Be it the mechanics of bridges, why Sean Connery's the best Bond, or the complexities of the offside rule, even if he's being patronising allow him his airtime, and he will then shut up, leaving you to enjoy the peace and quiet of a loving and giving relationship.
Step 7:: In the bedroom; When it comes to bedtime and matters of the night, your needs may be different. Sex is a simple matter for him: he wants it, whenever, wherever. Never put out if you aren't in the mood, but do accept he always will be, and don't tell him off because he finds you devastatingly attractive all of the time. And if you really don't fancy it, just distract him with beer.; Done; Have fun with your boyfriend.

interesting enough, some part are quite true. especially about the guys are actually doesn't change much from when we're still cavemen(heck some of us still are xD) Man, need their ego, without it we're just some gay, girly crybabies lol. Don't know about the girl's part tho. Real girls out there, please enlighten me xD

~frosty~

Ho hum~ Need new gears for my photography =.="

2008-08-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

As u may already know, I seriously LOVE photography. Phew, Luckily pass all my subject this semester, 3.12 pointer, not bad for a lazy bum like me, :P

Anyyywayy......If you have no Idea at ALL about photography, just skip this post LOL.

I feel more & more limited with my current SLR gear, slow lens, aperture not wide enough, battery out of juice too soon, limited memory, phew....& the list goes on..

Was thinking about getting this F2.0 50mm Zuiko lens for my Oly SLR.(yeah, I named my SLR Oly since it's an Olympus xD). Man, this masterpiece, piece of glass cost around 2K >.<" Man, this baby is a beauty! Super sharp lens & has an aperture of F/2, compare that to my current lens F/3.5, >.<" I realized I was seriously crippled when taking photography indoor. Most of my shots turned out pretty blurry unless my subject stay completely still, which is IMPOSSIBLE during an event such as a birthday party. I hate to use flash, It's fugly >.<"

The other gear I need are a polarizing filter for my lens since I love to take sky shots!This filter can make blue skies really blue & clouds whiter . Man, clouds are so amazing, wild, random yet beautiful & graceful, I'll never get bored of photographing them. This piece of glass cost around 130 bucks.

And lastly an EX25 extension tube, a blessing for macro photo, This make ur lens able to focus closer so a super close up photo is possible even with the kit lens. This baby gonna burn 500 bucks right thru my wallet >.<" But man, It sure is gonna worth It. All in all, everything gonna cost me around 2.7k o.O" almost the same price as a new SLR!

Gah, the only problem right now is cash, hmm.Im poor xD. Need to find some part time jobs or wait for the ptptn thingie which is really unreliable so I have to forget about that, soon baby, soon...:D

"Poverty is not a disgrace, but it's terribly inconvenient"

LOL, can't agree more.

~frosty~

Silly rabbit! tricks are for kids!

2008-08-05T14:10:00.000+08:00

Liar, liar pants on fire!!

Lol, everyone hates liars eh? They either lie to gain respect or getting out of tight situation. To gain respect through lying is like taking drugs, It might help you for a while but in the long run when people found out that your a fraud, the respect u'll end up with is as much as the dirt on the ground, worthless. I have a 'friend' once...ok, so maybe just an 'acquaintance', she got a group of good friends around her, they go everywhere together, ya know, the usual stuff. But when her friends found out that she's a fraud, BOOM!, bye bye friendship. A relationship ended by the very person who started it.

Well personally, I don't really care about liars, they provide good entertainment once in a while. But I do try to avoid them tho. Then again when ur own friend lies to you, that's hard. So I try to make sure that they are NOT one before I accept the as a 'friend', the one that do however will remain forever as just an 'acquaintance'. I don't hate them or anything, just no respect whatsoever towards them, they are like spoiled kids who requires attention. Unless of course they lie to you and you end up dead >.<" WTF?

Well luckily even a bastard like me have brothers from another mother(as Dex would put It) that I can trust, yeah you know who you are. LOL.

peace ya'll (^.^)y

~frosty~

Twisted, twisted world we live in

2008-08-04T02:46:00.000+08:00

"Contradiction is not a sign of falsity, nor the lack of contradiction a sign of truth." - Blaise Pascal's quote.

There is NO such thing as right or wrong in this world anymore, just what acceptable & what is NOT acceptable. For example we know that killing people is universally wrong right? What about those prosecutor or executor who sends hardcore criminals to the death row?We know that It's still wrong but yet, It's is widely acceptable.

"Saddam:When I said I wanna hang out, this is NOT what I meant, guys" Saddam before he 'meet his maker'. o.O"

And we know that talking shit behind someone's back is wrong but if It's towards someone that..let's say..DESERVES It & is agreed by a group of people, It seems to be acceptable.

Or for example killing in the name of 'GOD' in some religion. Even if they resent the killing of another human in the first place. Or even coup de grâce(killing of mercy i.e 'mercy killing' intended to end the suffering of a wounded creature/person that can't be saved) Is widely acceptable.

(Moses:" WHICH part of the commandments Didn't you mortals understand?!Rawr!")

It seems that the 'Ten commandments' or other religious rules is obsolete, replaced by man made rules that's fabricated by ourselves to adapt to our own needs. In the end our world is full of Hypocrisies & Contradictions. That's the cold hard truth.

Hey, I'm not saying this is bad or wrong or whatever, everyone is a hypocrite in some sense,I am one & I'm not proud of It & It seems to be widely acceptable. It's kinda funny when someone is calling another a hypocrite because He/she himself is one.(There's a contradiction & hypocrisy in this this paragraph if you noticed:p)

Now let us all get along a sing Barney's happy song," I love u, u love me, we are happy family~"

*shoots head with a 44mm magnum revolver*

-Peace-

~frosty~

Withouts...

2008-08-01T19:32:00.000+08:00

Life without you....emptiness

Life without pain...stagnant

Life without disappointments........ridiculous

Life without a purpose..............meaningless

Life without hopes............despair

Life without faith...........insecure

Life without money.......agonizing

Life without friends.......lonesome

Life without parents.........sorrowful

But......

Life without you.....

...Is my world torn to pieces.....

~frosty~

Night Out

2008-08-01T09:45:00.000+08:00

So last nite we held our club's(akiyame) dinner at Hornbill Steamboat, don't know why It's so freakin hot yesterday so I just had to resort to wearing my 'Hawaiian' wares >.<"

aaannywayys......!

We had a few extra guesses, Dex,Intel(Gary) & Lance(damn, forgot his Chinese name) & oh yeah, sumone celebratin' their birthday yesterday so we get some free cakes, woot. Well, kinda lazy to write today so I got some pictures to do the talking :D Sanda, Intel, Kenan & Chin.

Food~!,Me & Dex had to fight the urge to order some beer last nite, ugh...temptations everywhere I tell ya.

Foood~! The great thing about this is that It doesn't matter how sucky u r at cooking, It will still tastes...um.. well let's just say It's still edible xD

Dex & Yen Cam whoring, Yen wiv her usual blur expression lol.

another one, Azie decided to poke her head in
Yen, officially drunk xDDDD

Then, after the dinner, we're still bored so we decided to walk around town, man, everything seems so different...just the way I like It.

Near the cat statue, the cat was unimportant so we left It out of the pics.ahah

some night shots

street artist...hmm...I wonder if I'll become like dat when I grow up...nah, I'm no that good :p

Pineapple, Melons & Carrots, grows from the same tree, comes wiv free G.I Joe action figures.

Petrus, we love ur artwork, now give us a Friggin' 'A+' lol

Dex & Lance, In front of Tun Jugah.

Well, so that's about It, quite a fulfilling night actually for my standard(LOLZ)

~frosty~

Wanna mate? LOL!

2008-07-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

Love is a beautiful thing...To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven,Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile. This is how some poet describe what love is. Some people may say that we live to love. It Doesn't matter what you may call it, It all comes down to one thing, to satisfy man's urge to reproduce. xD

I guess we're not much different than wild animals, the only thing that sets us apart is we can think. We don't just go to a potential mate & 'Do It'. Instead we groom ourselves, we use words to push each others 'buttons', impress each other with our abilities etc. & when you've succeeded in this ancients ritual, you'll get your trophy. ( But then again that's what birds do.)

(Hmm, that's kinda explain why some guys have a fetish for big breast, It's shows that the female can feed a lot of kids & girls prefer guys that's tough, have a lot of talents & buffed physiques so he can 'hunt' or in todays word 'work' for food & take care of the family)

The word 'Love' is what we civilized people use when we are in our mating season.(Females actually ready to 'reproduce' at the age of 9 so that's explains why girls develops the feeling of 'love' sooner than boys)

I can imagine boys & girls flirting with each other by saying ' wanna go for a mate? instead of date.lol, That would be wacky xD. Phew, I wonder when I'm gonna get into my mating season lol.

p/s: these are just my opinions, don't take It too seriously :p

~frosty~

Being alone...is It THAT bad...?

2008-07-28T10:33:00.000+08:00

Seeing people around me, they seems so happy to be around people, have a lot of close friends & countless acquaintance, going to parties, pubs & what not, being alone is not an option....& then there's me....

Being in solitude is somehow what I prefer, It's not that I hate people, relationships or the outside world, I can't seem to explain it. Walking in an overcrowded city by myself...sitting on top of a tall building alone watching swarms of people hustling, rushing on the busy street below, going through their daily lives...that is how I prefer it most of the time. I'm a 'lone wolf' not by choice or circumstances but by nature so I don't expect pity nor sympathy from people for my situation, coz It's not like I feel bad or lonely for being alone.

I don't like to be bound to someone nor places. I like to do what I like to do & whenever I wanna do it. Having to ask people for permission first to do something or going somewhere, following schedules or rules that has been set by others seems so constricting for me. I prefer to do things on my own time & accord...sigh~

I know that too much freedom is as bad as too little of it. But somehow It's not freedom that I seek, like I said, I just don't want to be bound to people.

I guess I'm just plain weird.lol

... excuse me for my ranting, just wanna share my thoughts.

~frosty~

Badass songs

2008-07-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

Just hearing these songs makes me wanna go out there and beat the hell outta sumone for no reason lol..
...maybe it's the side effects

Taste the Blood
composer/ performer Shawn McPherson

The flinch in your eyes calls your bluff
Feel free to die when you've had enough
Useless cause is breaking your back
Your life will end when you attack

Make your move
Make your stand
Make the win
(Hah) Like you can

See the war
See me rule
See the mirror
You'll see a fool

To take me out you must fight like a man
(To take me out you must fight like a man)
You've yet to proven that you can
(You've yet to proven that you can)
I see your might it compares to something
That is if something is nothing

Time to figure
Time to sin
Your times done
When you begin

Live for suffer
Life for revenge
Know your life
Comes to an end

Taste the blood
Taste your fate
Swallow your pride
With your hate

Your last breath
Your last stance
The last of all
In your command

Kneels in the blood
With your crying pleas
Wade in your sorrow bathe
In your fear
Clear your mind
From righteousness suffered
Witness the moment your
Failures Prosper

(Repeat)

and another one

Suffer
composer/ performer Shawn McPherson

You got nothin'
And nothin's got you
I can see your fear cuz it surrounds you
Built with strife
And insight but it's not enough
I'll defeat and discreet your every move

This instinct that you dwell- will just
Take your life
One step, one breath you're under my knife
Killing slow is the way I conquer
It's time for torture test
Can't wait no longer

With your first step you will burn
Can't control the hate you've learned
Killing slow is the way I conquer
Until you know the meaning of suffer

Step twice you invite and welcome death
Pay homage to me with your last breath
Say goodbye to a life that you once knew
Along with every being
That was before you

(Repeat)

In case ya didn't know, It's the soundtrack from 'Devil May Cry3'


~frosty~

Some random stuff I learn from video games.

2008-07-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

Some scene that caught my interest while playing this game(persona 3)

1.LOL, No, but more & more people keep saying 'lol' in real life, must be some kind of trend nowadays=.="

2.
While talking to Hidetoshi, character from the game, referring to some kids:

'They're mistaking selfishness for freedom..." Can't get any truer than that lol.

More will be added soon....yea, I got too much free time right now xD

~frosty~

Weird questionaire...

2008-07-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

Here goes:~

1.If practice makes perfect & nobody's perfect, why practice?
-cuz...um..WTF? what am I practicing all this time FOR then?D:

2.What would a chair look like, if your knees bent the other way?
-It would look weird?

3.Why do our noses run and our feet smell?
-Imagine if ur nose smells o.O" That wudn't be nice now wud it?

4.What does "it" mean in the sentence "What time is it?"?
-Ur watch?

5.If 7-11 is open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, why are there locks on the doors?
-Coz in 2008 there's 366 days(leap year), so they got one extra day to close shop xD *phew*

6.Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
-It's a bad habit.

7.When someone with multiple personalities threathens suicide, can that be considered a hostige situation?
-Let me ask my other self.

8.What Happens If You Get Scared Half To Death Twice?
-you'd be one-quarter alive. And if you get scared half to death AGAIN, then you'd be one-eighth alive. Then 1/16th. Then 1/32nd. And so on, and so on...

9.If money doesn't make us happy, then what does it do?
-It's used to buy the happiness.

10.If you get corn oil by squeezing corn, how do you get baby oil?
-baby olives? lol

11.Why do we wash BATH TOWELS; aren't we clean when we use them?
-There's always that ONE part we always miss >.<"

12.If electricity comes from electrons does it mean morality comes from morons?
-Morons comes from immoral fucktards, duh.

13.If one synchronized swimmer drowns, do the rest have to drown too?
-Nope,everyone knows that there's the synchronized life-guards.

14.If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?
-coz friends are sold separately, battery not included.

15.If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?
-that's why they got the one with embroideries on them, they can still read brailles.

16.If God didn't want us to eat people, why did he make them out of MEAT?
-What? U prefer to be made out of tofu?

17.Why is the person who invests all your money called a broker?
-Cost they're broke & they need ur money.

18.How can two space ships meeting always face the right way up in Sci-Fi movies?
-Because the director told them to. lol

19. Why did the chicken cross the road?
-Because Colonel Sander is chasing them.

20.How do you tell when you run out of invisible ink?
-When u can actually see the ink.

The shortage of petroleum makes me wonder....

2008-07-19T08:01:00.000+08:00

What will happen when we have truly ran out of petroleum? There's no question that there will be less car on the road.....but...

What about all the airplanes & big-ass cargo ships? I mean most businessmen needs to travel by air a lot to do business trips(or whatever) & ships to move their cargoes around right? So what will happen if we ran out of fuel for airplanes and ships?

Will we need to go back to using sail boats & one of those helium balloon air ships? Man, this I gotta see lol. And we can also say our farewell to all of these petroleum based products:

Solvents	Diesel	Motor Oil	Bearing Grease
Ink	Floor Wax	Ballpoint Pens	Football Cleats
Upholstery	Sweaters	Boats	Insecticides
Bicycle Tires	Sports Car Bodies	Nail Polish	Fishing lures
Dresses	Tires	Golf Bags	Perfumes
Cassettes	Dishwasher	Tool Boxes	Shoe Polish
Motorcycle Helmet	Caulking	Petroleum Jelly	Transparent Tape
CD Player	Faucet Washers	Antiseptics	Clothesline
Curtains	Food Preservatives	Basketballs	Soap
Vitamin Capsules	Antihistamines	Purses	Shoes
Dashboards	Cortisone	Deodorant(ugh)	Footballs
Putty	Dyes	Panty Hose(damn)	Refrigerant
Percolators	Life Jackets	Rubbing Alcohol	Linings
Skis	TV Cabinets	Shag Rugs	Electrician's Tape
Tool Racks	Car Battery Cases	Epoxy	Paint
Mops	Slacks	Insect Repellent(now what?)	Oil Filters
Umbrellas	Yarn	Fertilizers	Hair Coloring
Roofing	Toilet Seats	Fishing Rods	Lipstick
Denture Adhesive	Linoleum	Ice Cube Trays	Synthetic Rubber
Speakers	Plastic Wood	Electric Blankets	Glycerin
Tennis Rackets	Rubber Cement	Fishing Boots	Dice
Nylon Rope	Candles	Trash Bags	House Paint
Water Pipes	Hand Lotion	Roller Skates	Surf Boards
Shampoo	Wheels	Paint Rollers	Shower Curtains
Guitar Strings	Luggage	Aspirin	Safety Glasses
Antifreeze	Football Helmets	Awnings	Eyeglasses
Clothes	Toothbrushes	Ice Chests	Footballs
Combs	CD's	Paint Brushes	Detergents
Vaporizers	Balloons	Sun Glasses	Tents
Heart Valves	Crayons	Parachutes	Telephones
Enamel	Pillows	Dishes	Cameras(Noo!)
Anesthetics	Artificial Turf	Artificial limbs	Bandages
Dentures(haha)	Model Cars	Folding Doors	Hair Curlers
Cold cream	Movie film	Soft Contact lenses	Drinking Cups
Fan Belts	Car Enamel	Shaving Cream	Ammonia
Refrigerators	Golf Balls	Toothpaste(shivers)	Gasoline

Hopefully(no doubt about it) we will find some sort of substitute for all these stuff, or else everything will be made up from wood or rocks. Underwear made from tree bark...NOOO!!

What's next? war will be waged with swords, shields & trebuchet? haha, we're going medieval baby!

Just some crazy random thoughts xD

~frosty~

Seeing the glass as half empty or half full?

2008-07-19T07:18:00.000+08:00

Everyone knows the old philosophy, seeing the glass as half empty means pessimism while half full means optimism. Most people would choose the latter.

But to me, Its a sign of prejudice, I mean, why don't we take the time to investigate? Why don't we just ask whether someone just filled up the glass half way or sum just drank from it? Understand a situation before you make your judgments.

Anywaaayy.....

We are currently living in a world where by just being optimistic is not enough anymore. When you have see & experienced the 'ugliness' of this world, It's hard to stay optimistic. Sometimes I just have to laugh at my troubles no matter how bad it is. It's the only way for me to stay sane in this insane world. So next time if u see me smiling or laughing by my self, it just means that I'm trying to be sane, not the other way around >.<"

Being a pessimist is not entirely bad as well, It's how you 'use' that pessimism that matters. I always expect bad things to happen to me so I'll never get caught off guard. Always have plan B just in case something bad happen.

Nothing is like what it seems nowadays,this is a twisted world we live in, looks can be deceiving, something that appear good is bad & vice versa.We just need to find a creative way to handle it(No!cutting your wrist is not helping!) Living logically is the way to go.

Knowledge IS power.

~frosty~

Things I hate >.<"

2008-07-19T06:25:00.000+08:00

-People who go all 'High & mighty' in front of me...hey If u really wanna do it THAT bad, go do it with a wall coz ur not gonna get any respect from me buddy.

-People who blames others if their life happens to suck, I mean if u screwed up ur life, be a man & move on... stop the blaming game, It's annoying.(even I do It sometimes, It's a serious flaw>.<",even I hate myself, fair enuff?:p)

-Responsibility...It prevents me from having fun >.<" But I think everyone is responsible for their own life tho.

-Phone calls....don't know why,I feel like I'm talking to a machine which happens to sound like my friend o.O". prefer to speak face to face.

-Over crowded places... I'm claustrophobic...ok so maybe not. But still, hate 'em.

-Public speaking/presentation....all those beady eyes looking at you...ugh

-Being tied down...I enjoy my freedom, doing what I like as long as I know I won't effect the life of others.

-Smoking/cigarettes...I know it's an effective stress killer but it kills. Play video games, It's much more effective xD

-Hypocrites...well I don't actually hate them, they just made me laugh in disgust . ahah.

-Doing the same things over & over again...Even if it's fun,I get bored easily, constantly need to experience something new.

"Don't hate the player, hate the game."

~frosty~

The first movie that brought tears to my eyes....

2008-07-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

Imagine, you love someone so much, the only person you have any feelings to, slowly dying right in front of your eyes....little by little.....Even when you ready to give your life away for them, There's nothing you can do about it...

Taiyou no Uta, roughly translates to 'Song of the Sun' in english

It's recommended to anyone who enjoy Japanese drama, especially if you really a big fan of Yui, like me:D. I was surprised, she can really act. sigh~......

Sorry...lost in my thoughts for a while....

Kouji showing his 'skillz' to Kaoru(Yui) lol

This is really a beautiful movie, very touching & did I mentioned Yui is in it? haha. After watching it, It left me totally speechless & the next thing I know, my eyes started to get all watery & a heavy feeling of sadness on my chest(kinda hard to describe).Well maybe It's just me but Man seriously, that IS something coming from a guy who's always laughing when watching a sad movie. ahah.

~frosty~

Human trying to play God huh?

2008-07-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

I always love robots, mechs, gundams... or whatever people are calling them nowadays. They're so cool that no explanation is needed, hah. Robots are basically machine that is supposed to make life easier for us lazy-ass human, especially in one of those big car factories where no ordinary (modern)human can do all the lifting works. Robots are good....until when human are starting to make them to look or behave like a living,thinking human being.

I mean...robots are suppose to be machine......u know, made out of iron, wire, diods, batteries, they suppose to look & act like a machine, not like this...believe it or not, the picture above is actually a robot,(here the link on youtube if somehow you wanna check it out in action http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4sjV_lxSVQo) well an android to be precise, aptly named the 'Hello kitty Fembot' This truly defines what robot will look like. They look pretty & cute If I do say so myself but this is wrong, just freakin' wrong. Girls are supposed to made up from real....girls! Ya know, the soft, warm hug-gable kind of human female. Fake boobs are bad enough but this is ridiculous.

They even wanna make...this
a love doll, don't even ask where I got these information from o.O" Its currently made from silicon & bone-like skeletal system but right now they are even planning to integrate an artificial intelligence system in one of these. What really shocking is they already trying to make these robots smarter but totally forgotten to upgrade all those bimbos out there. tsk, this world could've been a better place.

Cogito ergo sum...'I think therefore I am'....this quote really defines what is a human being...

Robots are okay when they are able to think for themselves to get the job done but when scientist are starting to add human emotions in one of these things...haven't they ever watched Terminator or I-robots before? Hello~The first rule of robots: "A Robot shall never carry out any action which will cause any injury to any human being." ain't gonna save yer' sorry ass. Robot with Artificial Intelligence is nice & all, but to me they should only exist in the world of science fiction ...

I'll be back!!...for my facial treatment! Blergh!

If they wanna create a 'thinking' robot then God is already waaay ahead of them. Think about it, human are the perfect 'machine'. We 'create' each other, we grow naturally from tiny ovum, we can heal when part of us are 'damaged', we don't need batteries to power ourselves, instead we can consume anything organic around us & turn it into bio-degradable energies,we have a software called 'instinct' that keep us away from physical danger, all without requiring a single screwdriver & assembly manual!! Isn't that dandy?

Pretty smart huh?

The only similarity we share with these machine is our whole body is controlled by a super-processor called the 'brain' that sends tiny electrical signal throughout our entire body.

This world will become hell on earth when the we let the arrogance of human being get the best of us. From the early days, people are already play God by deciding who live & who die in the court of 'justice'. Human are human, God is God, he can always press that 'reset' button & start over, like what he did to the dinosaur. o.O"

Hopefully I won't be here when god decides to reset this twisted game, AMEN!

~frosty~

Life greatest question...

2008-07-14T17:32:00.000+08:00

(photo by:Demis COURQUET-LESAULNIER)

In the world of philosophy, the most toughest question to answer is probably 'what is the true meaning of life?' For centuries it has kept the mind of philosopher & even psychologist preoccupied trying to find the answer to this rather useless question.

Based on my own experience & observation of people around me I can come up with one obvious yet most overlooked answer...

'In search of Happiness',

Let me elaborate. I'm not really good at explaining things nor I expect the reader to comprehend easily but I'll give It a shot anyway. It's gonna be long so grab a pillow...just in case.lol

To become rich & well known, marry our sweethearts & have cute little kids is probably the most sought after kind of happiness that everyone is after.
(photo:'words don't come easy' by Jörgen Camrath)

Yet seeing some people are still managed to live a happy life just by doing some rather boring stuff & living a far less 'flashy' lifestyle made me to think again about what happiness really is.

A photo by A.madestra. W, This might very well be the meaning of these farmer's life.

People aren't robots nor some lifeless program which has been hard-wired to have one identical 'happiness' This would be a rather dull world.

Majority of people thinks that by becoming rich or being in relationship will guarantee you a lifetime of happiness but for how long can they deceive themselves? I'm not saying that love & money is entirely useless, to some people It's THEIR happiness, but to some it may probably not what they truly want. Bill gates is probably the best example, we may think that becoming a billionaire insure happiness but why did he gave up all his richest to help his wife with global health and education work to then?(see 'Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation') I guess that is HIS meaning of life:)

It's not hard to find what is Our meaning of life, our happiness...Just think of what you sincerely enjoy doing, what you'll automatically do or want to do when your bored,follow your instinct coz what I notice is that what we enjoy doing have something to do with our ultimate happiness. Doing what you like leads you to YOUR future, ignoring this natural instinct will inevitably lead to an unfulfilled & miserable future.

('Cellist' by Robert Hutinski)

Be It musicians, artist, raising kids, having someone to share your life...as long as you know what you actually enjoy doing & make you feel happy, because the most important thing I've realize about true happiness is you'll always feel content whatever bad things happening to you. That's why some musicians still write music even if they don't make any money out of it or a lover who's still clinging to their partner no matter how bad they are treated, as long as they are fulfilling their life meaning.

As for me? The meaning of MY life is gotta be to live a laid back, relaxed & carefree life, none of those fancy parties or hectic life under the limelight & city life,already tried romantic relationships but still I feel empty. One day I'm gonna get myself a small log house by a lake, far from civilizations, with internet connection(waddaya expect?telegraph machine?) so I can know what's happening around the world from afar. Lying on a patch of grass under a tree at night, watching the clouds & starry skies....Heck, or even lying in a boat, floating in the middle of the lake. (Photo:Autumn boat, by Bror Johansson)
The sound of cars replaced by singing crickets,slowly drifting into my thoughts. Ahh....... someday.....I will.:) Now If only I can find a girl with the same dream as well, oh well, You can't have everything eh?Lol

What is YOUR meaning of life?;)

~frosty~

Photography....seeing through the minds eye.

2008-07-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

I've never realize that photography can be so...fulfilling. Back then, I don't even know an SLR(Single Lens Reflex) is a type of camera, nor the art of photography can be so deep & fascinating. From the very first time I held my DSLR, I can't stop learning about it, It opens up a whole new world that I never knew exist before.

Like I said, the best thing about photography is you can never stop learning. Just when you think you have mastered one technique, It opens up whole new branch of new challenges, new Ideas. I guess this is one of the reason I enjoy it so much, just like philosophy, you can never ever truly understand something, one answer just lead to some other new exciting question.

To me, this is just one of those rare things that made me truly feel 'alive'. Like studying people, photography isn't just about what you see on the outside, rather It's what on the inside...a good photographer can tell a whole story on just a piece of photograph.

A picture is worth a thousand words....& 3 Million Dollars!!

The picture above is ironically titled '99cents' which was sold for $3,340,456. The most expensive photograph in the world. To ordinary people, this photo can easily be over-looked as a rubbish photograph of a grocery store that was taken by your aunt Sally(whoever that is). But to some, It means waaay deeper than just an ordinary image. But money isn't what enticed me to immerse myself to the world photography...

Photography gives me the ability to 'trap' life. Everything around me is much more exciting, even the most mundane event can be so fascinating. When is the last time we just stop moving, tilt our head upward & just stare at the skies & clouds?(other than to check if it gonna rain or not.) I used to take everything for granted, trees are just trees, flowers are just flowers & clouds are just clouds...

One of my best cloud shot, taken right outside my campus

Now I see everything from a whole new perspective. Even the most common objects like set of stairs, chair & tables can tell a story & bring wonders. Nothing is boring anymore.

And best of all, photography enables me to capture the precious moment of people that has appeared in my life, for I know when I'm old & reaching the end of my life, just by looking at these precious photographs will evoke those beautiful moments....bringing both smile & tears of joy to my eyes....

Finally, a quote by Ansel Adam, the legendary photographer which really sums up what I think about photography...

A great photograph is a full expression of what one feels about what is being photographed in the deepest sense, and is, thereby, a true expression of what one feels about life in its entirety.
~Ansel Adams

Couldn't have said it better myself:)

~frosty~

2008-07-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

Semester break again, ahah. This should be fun...or so I thought. But maaan, sometimes I wish that It would end early.

It has never been like this tho, I used to enjoy my time off, from school, people & especially homework, blergh. But I guess everything is different when you've an adult. You realize that everything has changed, all the innocence of youth has vanished and instead It is replaced by something new, like responsibility.

I always hate responsibility...every action has consequences, good or bad. Since my dad passed away a long time ago, I officially became the 'man' of the family, stuck with 'his' responsibility...
even worse...I'm responsible for his mistakes. My mom always trying to prevent me from becoming like my father, heavy drinker, smoker & a motorcyclist(her reason is if he was driving a car, he wouldn't be fatally injured that day,tsk)....which inevitably led to his demise...

Then again, I guess It wasn't entirely his fault, sooner or later people WILL die, we can merely delay it the best we can. So I guess I have to get used to his...responsibility that he has passed down to me and make It mine...

But then again, I guess thanks to him, I am who I am right now, an 'Adult'...seeing the world from a different perspective other than from a child's eye. I'm missing the fun of being a 'normal' teenager but hey, Im content, that's all that matters in the end.

~frosty~

It's been a while...

2008-07-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

Got too much time on my hand this holiday, ah well...I guess It's time to start blogging again eh?

"The same old story"

Since I like the studies of psychology, philosophy & metaphysics, most of my posts are gonna revolve around those three so It can get pretty boring to some, but hey! You can always press that back button on your web browser eh?:p

Life's Like That

Final log

Hah!

Batang Aik?!

Love at first sight.....

Holy shit! It's Holiday!!!

A little poem about assignments

Sunset

Hungry

Vulnerable to Invincible.

Soul'd Out

Religion, God, War, Death = sigh~!

Diwali Diwala xD

In the eye of the storm, paradise found

Alone in a crowd, (emo alert!)

Go Eric, It's yo' B'day xD

Give me....

My Life's like that

I came, I saw, I take photo! :p

Butterflies in your hand.....

Huh? lol

Who I am Hates who I've been....

Photography - my panacea

Moving on

F**k this

Phew

Dug up some more pics

Dedication to my beloved.

The storm has passed....

After Death comes Life....

"I ran & ran, but Death overtook me and stare me right in the eyes..."

Just some thoughts....

"Every moment...captured in photo, that is my dream"

In the end, We ALL are under one roof ;)

Can't stand the heat?

Let's mooncake-ing!

It's all in your head

Closer,CLOSER!

ZUIKO DIGITAL ED 9-18mm 1:4.0-5.6!!

Painting with lights

Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Writer

Queen of the Night. I've found thee, ahah.

Flu, boo-hoo

Partaay! Masquerade style!

Someone please save us, us college Kids xD

Woot! haha.

I love the whole world, & all Its Craziness , boom-bee-ya-dah!

Akiyame Damai Outing

I'm Mr Complain, Yea My Life is shit :D

A new sem, the same old same old.

LOL! A MUST read post!

How To Be The Perfect Boyfriend

Listen to her

Love her friends and family

Be a man

In the bedroom

Surprise her

Be hygienic

Be faithful

Done

How To Be The Perfect Girlfriend

Relax your standards

But make an effort

Massage his ego

Feed him

Give him space

Listen to him

In the bedroom

Done

Ho hum~ Need new gears for my photography =.="

Silly rabbit! tricks are for kids!

Twisted, twisted world we live in

Withouts...

Night Out

Wanna mate? LOL!

Being alone...is It THAT bad...?

Badass songs

Some random stuff I learn from video games.

Weird questionaire...

The shortage of petroleum makes me wonder....